“What was that?” I asked him.
“What?”
“What you just did.”
He grinned his shit-eating grin. “It was good morning.”
“Good” didn’t quite cover it.
He sure did “good morning” a lot better than me.
“Next time I get to pin your hands down to the bed and have my wicked way with you,” I said.
I wanted to try the teeth thing on him that was nice.
He didn’t answer but he looked amused.
“No, seriously. It’s only fair,” I said.
“You could try.”
Hmm.
He said, “try”.
Whatever.
I was feeling too mellow to bicker.
“What’s on for your day?” he asked.
“First up, doctor’s appointment,” I started but Vance interrupted, the remnants of his amused look faded and his body got tense.
“Why?”
“Why what?”
“Why are you goin’ to the doctor?”
“Um…”
“Are you okay?”
I felt that whoosh of warmth through my belly at his concern and I couldn’t help but smile at him. “Yeah, we just need to discuss, erm…” Why was this embarrassing? He’d just had his mouth between my legs. I told myself to get over it and forged on. “Contraception.”
His body relaxed and he kissed my forehead. “That’d be good,” he said softly, “then what?”
“Work. I need to get to Fortnum’s, break it to Tex that his nights as a sidekick will be short-lived. Then I’m going to the hobby shop and picking up a How-To-Knit Kit.”
I didn’t know if there was such a thing as a How-To-Knit-Kit but I didn’t have time to wonder for long because Vance’s body started to shake with laughter.
“How to knit?” he asked, voice still amused.
“Yeah, I’ll need to do something in the evenings that doesn’t involve getting me kidnapped and other things that freak me out. I tried baking. That, as you could see, didn’t work. Now I’m going to try knitting.”
Knitting didn’t burn when Daisy came over to give you an impromptu facial and you forgot it so I thought it was a safe bet.
He rolled into me so he was partly on top of me, partly at my side. He was shaking his head and he had that look on his face, the look that said I was too adorable for words. His hand went to the side of my head and his fingers ran through my hair.
“What’s on for your day?” I asked and I found that I liked this. I liked cuddling and talking after spending the night together and morning sex. It didn’t cause a belly whoosh or flutter or plummet, it just made me feel warm, relaxed, mellow… happy.
I hadn’t felt really happy in twelve years and it was nice as in super nice.
“I’m gonna take Roam and Sniff out later. Can you bring them to Fortnum’s when you talk to Tex?”
Okay, I was back to the belly whoosh.
I nodded, smiling at him again, this time I suspected it was giddily. This was confirmed when Vance’s eyes got warm and soft or warmer and softer.
“Doesn’t take much with you, does it?” he murmured.
“This may not seem much for you, Crowe, but it’s gonna rock Roam and Sniff’s worlds.”
He didn’t respond.
“What does it take for you?” I whispered and wished I hadn’t.
That was a moonlight question. Even feeling mellow and happy, I wasn’t quite sure I was ready for a moonlight conversation in the morning. We’d had one yesterday and I was thinking once a week was my quota.
Surprisingly he didn’t hesitate in giving his response, clearly not sharing my moonlight restrictions on deep, meaningful, soul-shattering conversations.
“Making you come, watching you come, hearin’ you say my name when you do.”
Well one thing you could say for that, it had a theme.
He wasn’t finished. “Not knowin’ what ridiculous shit is gonna come out of your mouth and make me smile, Yoko Ono, learnin’ to knit, namin’ your car Hazel.”
Okay, I was back to needing the moonlight. That was too much. Especially since his face had changed and so had the air. He still had that warm and soft look but somehow it was mingled with intensity and I didn’t know what was going to come next. What I did know was that I wasn’t going to be prepared for it whatever it was.
“Crowe –”
I was right, he’d saved the real whammy for last and I wasn’t prepared for it.
When he spoke again, his voice had that fierce undercurrent and it slid across my skin, shrouding me in velvet. “Knowin’ I got something to live for now that you’re mine. Keepin’ it that way, workin’ at keepin’ this good like it is right now.”
I stopped breathing and he kept talking.
“I can go back now, to the rez, to my family with you on the back of my bike.”
My lungs started burning with lack of oxygen but that was okay considering my heart had also stopped beating. I figured I was going to die at any moment and I was totally fine with that.
Vance continued. “They can see that, despite them, I made it to the other side, passed their shit. While they lived their dysfunction, I worked my way to something better, ridin’ up with you wrapped around me.”
I butted in, it took a great deal of effort, mainly because I was overwhelmed by what he was saying. “Vance, you’re defined by more than just me giving my virginity to you.”
After I said that he kissed me softly then he did it again then again. Then his face an inch away from mine he said, “You’re right, Princess. That’s not what I’m sayin’. It isn’t about that, though that was a bonus. Even if I hadn’t been your first, I still would claim you as mine. But any man is defined by the woman who shares her bed with him.”
“That isn’t true.”
“It is and it works the other way too.”
Oh my God.
Did he really think that?
“Crowe –”
“Which means, if someone like you, someone as unbelievably beautiful as you, as crazy and sweet as you, filled with attitude and courage with her heart in the right place, in a lot of right places even though her head normally isn’t… if someone like you shares her bed with me, then that says something about me.”
Oh… my… God.
(I was going to let the comment about my head not being in the right place slide because the rest of it was so f**king nice.)