Aud giggled, the motion making her body vibrate against mine.
“No, I don’t know. I’m not a twin. But I’ve seen the connection you have and I think I understand it a little. I never told her much about my past and I guess I just let her assume that I hadn’t been with anyone because it was easier.”
“Easier than what?” I shifted so I could see her face.
“Easier than the truth.”
“And what is the truth?” Was this what it took for her to be honest with me? Sex?
She pressed her lips together and shook her head.
“I'm sorry, I can’t.”
I guess sex didn’t do the trick either. Her hand moved over her stomach, absentmindedly tracing her scar. I wondered what it was from, and what it could be that she’d be so scared to tell me. What injury that would leave a scar like that would make her shut down?
“Hey, come back,” I said, twisting some of her hair around my fingers.
“I'm here,” she said, but her eyes took a second to focus back on me. Then she smiled and leaned forward to press her lips to mine.
“I’m here with you.”
“You know I was supposed to do homework tonight, but this is so much better,” Will said much later as we lay in bed. I wanted desperately to take a shower and wash my sheets, but my body was still so boneless from the sex that I was worried if I tried to stand up, I might fall down again.
“I’m a huge fan of homework, but I can say that this is definitely better.” He had his boxers on and I’d donned my bra and panties, but I was still conscious of him looking at where my scar was. If he hadn’t figured it out after staring at it for a few hours, then he probably wouldn’t. At least that was what I told myself. And trying to hide it anymore would only draw more attention to it and make him more curious.
We lay opposite each other, my head resting on his hip and his head resting on mine.
“I sure hope I’m better than homework.” I started playing with his now-shorter hair. “If I wasn’t, you’d let me know, right?”
“When have I ever spared your feelings?”
“Ouch. But true.”
We were silent for a few more moments and then I had to say the thing that I knew we were both thinking.
“What is this, Will? What are we?” He inhaled for a minute and ran his thumb across my lips.
“We’re . . . us. I’m fine with this being defined, but if you want to live in the grey area, I’m happy there too. I just want to be with you, wherever that is.” My heart felt like it was expanding, almost bursting through my chest.
“We can try it. I guess.”
“Try what, Aud?”
“Try being together-together. You could be my boyfriend and I’ll be your girlfriend and we get each other gifts on holidays and go on dates and sleep with each other. Exclusively.”
His grin was so wide I was afraid he’d break his face.
“So I get to call you my girlfriend?”
“Yes, you get to call me your girlfriend. Most guys are scared of commitment, but you seem ready to jump in with both feet.” He put his hand under my chin.
“Most aren’t with you. And I’d like to think having a twin sister has given me an inside look on how women think.” He waggled his eyebrows and I laughed.
“You’re so cocky,” I said. I enjoyed seeing his reaction when I said any variation of the word “cock”. I’d never been a fan of the word before, but I definitely was now. I’d have to integrate it in my everyday speech. Especially when Will was around.
“Are you trying to make me hard again? Because it’s working.” I didn’t think I could go again. My downstairs might not make it.
“No. I’m fine with just this. You wore me out.”
“Me? What about you?”
We were both tired, but suddenly I felt refreshed. I lifted my head off his hip and swung myself around so we were face-to-face.
“What about me?”
“You’re wearing me out, woman. And that is something I never thought I would ever say.”
My only response was to kiss him and then the conversation derailed into removing our underwear and all the things that follow after underwear is removed.
I woke the next morning to someone nibbling my ear and something hard pressing into my back.
I groaned and rolled to face Will, who stared at me with eyes puffy from sleep, but with a smile on his face.
“You’re not trying to talk me into morning sex, are you?” My voice was raspy, and I cleared my throat. Judging by the quality of the light, it was still early and a glance at my clock confirmed that I had plenty of time to get ready for class.
“Hey, I can’t help that you were snuggled up against me all last night and you smell amazing and you’re warm. My c**k has a mind of its own.” He pointed down at said cock, which was making its presence known.
“Do you think you could, you know, help me out with it?” I wanted to roll my eyes at him and tell him no way, but he gave me big begging eyes and was so disheveled and sweet that I couldn’t resist.
I went down on him since I wasn’t all that comfortable with using my hand. I always felt like I was doing it wrong.
He came so fast I had no choice but to swallow, which I was able to accomplish, despite my limited experience.
“Fuck, Aud. I keep thinking you’ve done something that’s so sexy, I don’t see how you can top it and then you do something like that. I’m pretty sure my ex used hand sanitizer as lube once when she gave me a hand job.” The more I heard about this girl, the more I wondered why Will ever stayed with her. But when you were young and stupid you tended to do things that were young and stupid.
I just smiled and then crawled out of bed.
“Where are you going?” he whined, grabbing me by the waist and trying to drag me back to bed.
“I’m going to brush my teeth. I’ll be right back.” He just shook his head and tugged harder.
“No teeth brushing. More cuddling.”
“I thought guys hated cuddling,” I said, still trying to pull away from him.
“Like I said, guys who aren’t with you.” He tugged and I fell back on the bed on top of him.
“Will, come on,” I whined as he wrapped his arms around me and clung like a koala. A very large koala.
“Nope. Never letting you go.”
“I just gave you head and swallowed. Can I please go brush my teeth? You can come with me if you want.”