“And did my father believe that his grandfather could have been the child of a human and a vampire?”
The world became oddly still, the blue of her eyes became clearer as every sense he had focused upon her. He didn’t miss the fact that her hand was against her belly as she watched him. He rested his hand upon hers, leaning closer as he pressed a kiss on her temple. “He did believe that it was a strong possibility once he thought over everything.”
“I see,” she murmured. “But what difference would it make if he was, if I do have some vampire in me?”
“Xavier believes it will make a difference on your chances for survival.”
Her nostrils flared as she inhaled quickly. “Of the change?”
He didn’t want to desire this, he truly didn’t, but deep inside he did. He had to release her to grasp hold of the bench with both hands. His arms locked; the stone of the bench bit into his palms as he tried to steady his emotions. He didn’t know if he hoped for her to say yes or no, more. “Yes.”
There was a moment of stunned silence before she started to laugh and flung herself at him. He barely felt the force of her slender weight as she wrapped her arms around him and settled in his lap. Anguish and ecstasy swamped him as he hugged her back. “There’s still a chance you won’t survive. Xavier says the only survivors he knows of had vampire heritage of some sort, but we’re still not entirely certain that you do.”
“I’ll survive.”
“Aria…”
“I’ll survive Braith; I’m stronger than all of them and I’d say all the evidence points toward a ‘yes’ about my heritage. I’d never thought I’d be happy to hear that, to know that, but I am. I feel it’s right somehow.”
He almost couldn’t look at her. If she didn’t survive, he would be the one that killed her. He shuddered at the thought, his hands clenched upon her. But if she survived…
An eternity of promise unfurled before him; the hope was almost too much for him to bear. “I don’t want to be the one that kills you.”
“You won’t be.”
“Either way, I will Aria. You can stay human; you can stay with me as a human.” He had to make sure she thought over all her options.
“I will still die. I would love to have those years with you Braith, truly I would, but I’d love to have many many more with you.”
“Perhaps if we wait a few years…”
“We could do all of those things. I could grow old with you and you could watch me die that way. We can live together now for a few years, and then we will come to this same crossroads and it will be even more difficult to make the decision. Especially if there are children involved, I could never take the chance of leaving them. I’m not vain, but I don’t want to push this off year after year until I’m dying from old age and there are no other options.”
“You’d still be beautiful.”
“To you, of course, but it would be weird and you wouldn’t desire me.”
“It would be a little weird, but believe me there have been times when you’ve been the most unkempt and smelly thing I’ve ever come across, and I still desired you. I’d take you anyway I could get you.”
Her eyebrows lifted haughtily, her eyes sparkled with laughter. “You’re depraved.”
“I am what you made me.”
She grinned at him as she wiggled in his lap. He clenched his teeth as he tried to remain focused on the discussion at hand. “The last thing I want to do is die, and we’ve been waiting so long to start our lives together. I’d like to do so with the promise of eternity. I understand if you decide against doing this, I don’t know how I’d handle this if the roles were reversed. I’d be terrified.”
He rested his face in the hollow of her neck. He inhaled her sweet scent, savoring in it as he allowed it to soothe some of the tension in him. He could smell his blood within her, but if he did this, if this was the step they took, his blood would fill her even more. Their blood would be forever mingled.
“I’ll agree with whatever you decide Aria, this is your life we’re talking about here.”
“I know. I was never even sure I would live to this age to begin with.” A distant look settled over her face. He could almost see the reality settling over her, the knowledge that she would die from this, and possibly never reawaken. “I wouldn’t mind a few more years with each other, perhaps we could wait. Though there is only one way to guarantee we don’t have children.”
He quirked an eyebrow at her, she smiled playfully in return and shifted mischievously in his lap again. “You’re hilarious.”
“I am.” The smile slid away, her expression became grave once more. “I think I’ll survive Braith but if I don’t what will become of you? What will happen to you?”
“That’s not something you should be concerned about.”
“It is though. I saw your old rooms. I was in that dungeon with the survivor’s, I know what you are capable of when you lose control, and Ashby said that bloodlinks cannot survive without each other.”
“Ashby’s an idiot.”
“Braith…”
“I’ll survive Aria.” His hands splayed across her back. “I promise you that I will survive. I’ll hate myself, and I’ll hate this world if it doesn’t have you in it, but I’ll keep it together, and I’ll go on because of you. It’s the only thing I’ll have left of you, to do what you would expect of me, to do what would make you proud. I won’t destroy any humans; there won’t be any other blood slaves. This is not the same as last time Aria, I felt betrayed then, as did you,” he added quickly when her eyes darkened. “I was out of control, lost, and furious because I didn’t know what was going on with me, with you, or why you had left me so abruptly after claiming to love me. This will not be the same.”
“Our bond is stronger after last night.”
“Our bond was stronger before we slept together.” The words were hard, far harder than he had intended, but he’d seen the look of guilt that had flickered through her eyes. He wasn’t going to let her have any regret over what had happened between them. “Sex was not going to solidify it even more, no matter what Ashby, Gideon or any of those idiots believed. This.” He seized hold of her hand and pressed it over his still heart. “There are times I can almost feel this actually beating for you. You have owned it since the moment I saw you. It may have taken me awhile to come to that realization, but it’s true, and there is nothing, nothing that is going to change that. Not blood and not sex. You were made for me Aria; you’re my bloodlink, my soul mate.