It was further mostly soundproofed. Not entirely, the music could be heard, but once the door closed, it was significantly muted.
This was what happened right then. The door latched behind us, the music was drowned out, and Jake pulled me up the stairs and across the rug to the front of his desk. He positioned me there facing it, and dropped my hand so he could stand in front of me, back to his desk, and cross his arms on his chest.
When he’d done that, he repeated, “What happened?”
“You left our drinks at the bar, Jake,” I told him and I had to admit it was to buy time. He was making me somewhat anxious.
“What…happened?” he again repeated.
I studied him a long moment (buying more time, it must be said) then began, “First, can I just say that Alyssa told me that I shouldn’t—”
Jake interrupted me. “Babe, what works for Alyssa, and I’m guessin’ the way this is goin’, Alyssa and how things are with her and Junior, is not us. We are not Alyssa and Junior. You really f**kin’ aren’t Alyssa. And how I am with you is not what Junior gives Alyssa.”
“But they seem to have a very strong, healthy relationship,” I noted.
“They do. But Alyssa’s got a good family who’s all living, love her like crazy, have her back and always did. Then she got Junior and got a lot more of that. You had Lydie. That’s all you had. Until you got me. But you got me when you lost her. So shit goes down for Alyssa, she’s had a lifetime of having a solid foundation and she can take it. Or she’s got a lot of folks she can go to to give it to if she can’t. You only got me.”
As Alyssa had her points, Jake had his too.
“So, Josie.” He leaned toward me. “What happened?”
“Henry came to Lavender House today and fired me,” I blurted.
Jake blinked.
Then he leaned back, far back, resting his behind against the edge of the desk, clipping out, “That f**kin’ dick.”
“I was going to resign anyway, Jake,” I reminded him.
“That doesn’t make him any less of a dick,” Jake returned and continued, “Fuck him. Sue him. You were gonna resign or not, you gave him no reason to terminate you. No way around it, it’s wrongful dismissal. Take his ass to the cleaners.”
“He’s giving me nearly two years of wages as a severance package,” I explained.
“Go for double that,” Jake shot back.
“It needn’t be any more unpleasant than it already is, darling,” I said gently. “We talked further and although it started hostile, it didn’t end that way. Instead, it was distressing. He cares for me a great deal—”
“If he did, he wouldn’t fire you.”
“Please listen,” I whispered.
Jake clamped his mouth shut.
“We…well, we shared quite a bit and with our history, I assume you can understand that we both missed an opportunity and wasted a good deal of time and obviously coming to that understanding is going to be painful for us both. And now, for Henry, with me moving on, being happy, it’s difficult to take. He’s simply losing me. I’m losing him too, which hurts, but I’m also gaining something else, which makes it easier. He doesn’t have that.”
Jake had nothing to say to that and I decided to take that as agreement he understood.
“So, although the conversation started on a difficult note, it ended on a sorrowful one. I do believe that given some time, we can resurrect a bit of what we had. However, we’ve agreed we won’t be doing that with me in his employ. That would be too hard on both of us.”
“Good,” Jake grunted.
I pressed my lips together and rolled them.
Jake’s eyes narrowed on my mouth then cut to my eyes. “Is there more?”
“Well…” I said and trailed off.
“Fuck me,” Jake muttered then asked sharply, “What?”
“Well, I would…I mean, I think…um, truthfully, I don’t know—”
“Josie, babe, what?” Jake bit out.
“I think he just wanted to see, to try, one last shot but…” I pulled in a deep breath and announced, “He kissed me.”
Jake’s anger filled the room and I watched with some concern as his body, from top to toe, even resting against the desk, went completely still in a very disquieting way.
“What?” he whispered.
“It was really a good-bye kiss,” I shared quickly.
“If it was, you wouldn’t feel the need to tell me,” he retorted then asked, “He get inside?”
I pressed my lips together.
Jake’s brows shot together.
“You let him inside?” he pushed on a sinister whisper.
Perhaps Alyssa was right. At least about this part.
“It was a good-bye, Jake.”
He stared at me.
I stood there and let him.
I didn’t like the look on his face. It frightened me and not because it was frightening. Because it was angry and Jake had told me just the day before that when a man gets hurt, that comes out as angry.
“Jake—”
“Never do that again,” he said quietly.
I swallowed.
“That mouth’s mine,” he went on just as quietly.
I nodded.
“Never again, Josie. Don’t give a shit who it is, what history you got, how intense the situation, how bad you feel for the guy. That mouth is mine.”
I didn’t think it would be sensible to point out that Henry was the only man who I would allow to do that and only in that time, that situation, and never again.
I also thought it sensible to agree.
“Okay, darling,” I whispered.
“Come here,” he ordered.
I felt it prudent to go there and do it immediately.
So I did.
When I did, he separated his legs and leaned in, yanking me between them so my body collided with his and his arms clamped around me.
I tipped my head back to look at him.
“Never keep anything from me, I don’t give a shit how you think I’m gonna react. I’ll react how I react. I will never harm you doin’ it. But I got enough experience with what doesn’t work between a man and a woman to know that keepin’ shit from each other is a big f**kin’ part of that.”
“Okay,” I agreed.
“So, that guy contacts you again, you tell me.”
“Okay,” I repeated.
“Anyone f**ks with you, upsets you, whatever, you tell me that too. I don’t give a shit if you think it’s nothing, like someone givin’ you a dirty look at the grocery store that gives you the willies. You f**kin’ tell me.”