“Oh, an expert. It’s a specialized skill, you know.”
He could have stared at her all day. It was something about the way her top lip turned up a little as it joined the soft skin below her nose. There was a special name for that part of the face, and he was sure that if he stared at her long enough he would remember it.
“I did what I was bred to do. I bagged a rich husband, and I keep him happy.”
The smile faltered. Perhaps a man without his experience might have missed it, a slight give around the eyes, a suspicion of something more complex than the surface might suggest.
“Actually, I’m going to have a drink,” she said. “Would you mind awfully?”
“You should absolutely have a drink. I shall enjoy it vicariously.”
“Vicariously,” she repeated, holding up a hand to the waiter. She ordered a Martini vermouth, lots of ice.
A recreational drink, he thought: she wasn’t out to hide anything, to lose herself in alcohol. He was a little disappointed. “If it makes you feel any better,” he said lightly, “I don’t know how to do anything but work.”
“Oh, I think you do,” she responded. “Men find it easier to work than to deal with anything else.”
“Anything else?”
“The messiness of everyday life. People not behaving as you’d like and feeling things you’d rather they didn’t feel. At work you can achieve results, be the master of your domain. People do as you say.”
“Not in my world.” He laughed.
“But you can write a story and see it on the newsstands the next day just as you wrote it. Doesn’t that make you feel rather proud?”
“It used to. That wears off after a while. I don’t think I’ve done much I can feel proud of for some time. Everything I write is ephemeral. Tomorrow’s fish-and-chip paper.”
“No? Then why work so hard?”
He swallowed, pushing an image of his son from him. Suddenly he wanted a drink very much. He forced a smile. “All the reasons you say. So much easier than dealing with everything else.”
Their eyes met, and in that unguarded moment, her smile fell away. She flushed a little, and stirred her drink slowly with a cocktail stick. “‘Vicariously,’” she said slowly. “You’ll have to tell me what that means, Anthony.”
The way she said his name induced a kind of intimacy. It promised something, a repetition in some future time.
“It means”—Anthony’s mouth had dried—“it means pleasure gained through the pleasure of someone else.”
After she had dropped him at his hotel, he lay on the bed and stared at the ceiling for almost an hour. Then he went down to reception, asked for a postcard, and wrote a note to his son, wondering if Clarissa would bother to pass it on.
When he returned to his room, a note had been pushed under the door:
Dear Boot,
While I’m not yet convinced you’re not an ass, I’m willing to give you another chance to convince me. My dinner plans have fallen through for this evening. I’ll be dining in the Hôtel des Calypsos on rue St. Jacques and would welcome company, 8 p.m.
He read this twice, then ran downstairs and sent a telegram to Don:
IGNORE LAST TELEGRAM STOP AM STAYING ON TO WORK ON SERIES ABOUT RIVIERA HIGH SOCIETY STOP WILL INCLUDE FASHION TIPS STOP
He grinned, folded it, and handed it over, picturing his editor’s face when he read it, then tried to work out how to get his suit laundered before the evening.
That night Anthony O’Hare was utterly charming. He was the person he should have been the previous evening. He was the person he perhaps should have been when he was married. He was witty, courteous, chivalrous. She had never been to Congo—her husband said it was “not for your sort”—and, perhaps because he now had some built-in need to contradict Stirling, Anthony was determined to make her want to love it. He talked to her of the elegant, tree-lined streets of Léopoldville, of the Belgian settlers who imported all their food, tinned and frozen, at hideous expense rather than eat in one of the world’s most glorious cornucopias of produce. He told her of the shock of the city’s Europeans when an uprising at the Léopoldville garrison ended with their pursuit and flight to the relative safety of Stanleyville.
He wanted her to see him at his best, to look at him with admiration instead of that air of pity and irritation. And something strange happened: as he acted the charming, upbeat stranger, he found that he briefly became him. He thought of his mother: “Smile,” she would tell him, when he was a boy, it would make him happier. He hadn’t believed her.
Jennifer, in turn, was lighthearted. She listened more than she talked, as socially clever women were wont to do, and when she laughed at something he said, he found himself expanding, keen to make her do it again. He realized, with gratification, that they drew admiring glances from those around them—that terribly g*y couple at table 16. She was curiously unabashed at being seen with a man who was not her husband. Perhaps this was how Riviera society functioned, he thought, an endless social duet with other people’s husbands and wives. He didn’t like to think of the other possibility: that a man of his stature, his class, could not be seen as a threat.
Shortly after the main course, a tall man in an immaculately cut suit appeared at their table. He kissed Jennifer on both cheeks, then waited, after they had exchanged pleasantries, to be introduced. “Richard, darling, this is Mr. Boot,” she said, straight-faced. “He’s been working on a profile of Larry for the newspapers back in England. I’m filling in the details, and trying to show him that industrialists and their wives are not entirely dull.”
“I don’t think anyone could accuse you of being dull, Jenny.” He held out his hand for Anthony to shake it. “Richard Case.”
“Anthony . . . ah . . . Boot. There’s nothing dull about Riviera society, as far as I can see. Mr. and Mrs. Stirling have been wonderful hosts,” he said. He was determined to be diplomatic.
“Perhaps Mr. Boot will write something about you, too. Richard owns the hotel at the top of the hill. The one with the fabulous views. He’s at the absolute epicenter of Riviera society.”
“Perhaps we can accommodate you on your next visit, Mr. Boot,” the man said.
“I should like that very much, but I’ll wait and see if Mr. Stirling enjoys what I’ve written before I predict whether I’ll be allowed back,” he said. They had both been so careful to mention Laurence repeatedly, he thought afterward, to keep him, invisibly, between them.