“They wanted me to take it slow. Evidently I strained some ligaments in my hip pretty bad. But I was bound and determined that, come hell or high water, I was getting out of this damn bed. I wanted ‘em to know I was ready to be discharged.”
I pause before I finish telling him what happened. It’s during that time that Trick, my best friend who knows me better than anybody, figures it out.
“Busted your ass, didn’t you?”
I can’t help but grin. “Pretty much. I was a lot weaker than I thought I’d be. When the therapist got me up, I tried to walk ahead. Thought I’d show him how self-sufficient I am. Well, I showed him all right.”
Trick throws back his head and laughs. I shake my head, letting him get it out of his system. “Did it get better after they scooped up your pathetic ass?”
“Yeah, a little. I’m still kinda weak, but I’m doing as much as I can from the bed. I’ll be out of here as soon as is humanly possible.”
Trick nods his head, still smiling. When the silence stretches on, he steps closer to the bed. “So, what happened with Jenna? You did something stupid, didn’t you?”
“Man, why do you always take her side?”
“Because I know you. You’re a guy. We do stupid shit.”
“Well, it wasn’t me this time. She was getting ready to leave soon anyway. I spared her the trouble of having to come back up here and babysit.”
“You really are an idiot, aren’t you?”
“No, because I was right. She’s not staying around here, Trick. That was never her plan. And it still isn’t. She’s getting a job somewhere else. Period. The end.”
“Just because she doesn’t want to live in this town forever doesn’t mean she doesn’t want to be with you. Hell, you even talk about getting away from here and opening up a classic restoration shop near a big city. How is that any different?”
“Because I’d never leave someone I loved. Not for a job, not for anything.”
“Have you ever asked her to stay? For you?”
“No.”
“Why not?”
“I know she doesn’t want to. Why would I ask her to stay when I know she doesn’t want to?”
“Then how the hell can you be mad at her for leaving?”
I’m getting irritated. “Look, I can’t explain it to you. You obviously don’t get it. She’s not the kind to stick around. That’s it. It was a fun thing while it lasted. Now it’s over. Leave it the hell alone, will ya?”
Trick just shakes his head, but he doesn’t say anything more about it. Even though, in a way, I wish he would.
CHAPTER SEVENTEEN - Jenna
I wander aimlessly through the house. I stroll through the den, with its comfy brown sofa and dark cream walls, then into the dining room. I let my fingers trail over the chair backs, making note of the worn edges. It’s the suit my grandparents gave to my parents as a housewarming gift when they signed over the orchard then left for retirement in Florida. It was brand new once upon a time. Now it looks old and worn. And loved. Every smooth spot, every faded spot is the result of being handled thousands of times by Mom and Dad, and by Jake and me.
Although my father sent us off to school shortly after my mother’s death, this house still holds a million precious memories. They’re just not enough to make me want to stay here. Few things are.
I move on into the kitchen, noticing, as I always do, the faint smell of peaches. It must be permanently embedded in the wood of the floors and the plaster of the walls. The kitchen always smells sweet, just like the orchard outside.
“How much longer you gonna be able to put these people off, Jenna?”
Startled, I whirl around toward the back door. I find Cristos Theopolis, my father, standing there watching me. His eyes are the same warm honey color as my brother’s, only right now, they hold concern. That’s the only difference because Jake’s never do. Somehow, life made his heart hard and mostly inaccessible.
I sigh. “A little while longer. It’s just an interview, Daddy.”
“Just an interview. Just the rest of your life, you mean.”
“Who’s to say I’d even like working there? A degree in business with a focus in marketing is hardly a narrow field. I could work anywhere, in any number of settings.”
“It’s a great company, Jenna. You’re the one who tried to sell me on them just a couple of months ago. Why the sudden hesitation?”
“I…I…I don’t know,” I say with a shrug, making my way to the kitchen window to look out.
“What’s gotten into you, Jen? Lately, you’re so distracted. You seem restless and...well, unhappy.”
I sigh. “I guess I was just hoping Rusty would be out of the hospital before I left.”
“Rusty? I thought you two broke up.”
“We did. If we were ever really together, that is.”
“What does that mean?”
I sigh again. “Oh nothing. I guess I’m just…waiting.”
“On what? What is it you think will happen if he gets out before you go?”
“I don’t know, I—”
“Do you think he might propose? I mean, you’re broken up. Wouldn’t waiting around be silly? Maybe you ought to move on.”
His words hit a tender spot. “God, Daddy, I’m not stupid. I know he’s not gonna get out and come to beg me back. But I’d like to make sure his life gets back to normal, you know?”
“And if it doesn’t? What then? What is it you think you’ll be able to do for him?”
“I can’t do anything for him. I know that. But if things don’t work out for him around here…”
“Jenna, you’ve got to stop this. You can’t put your life on hold for a boy.”
“He’s not a boy, Daddy. And he’s not just ‘a boy’ anyway. I love him. If there’s even a small chance that we could be together, I’ll wait for it.”
Even to my own ears, I sound deluded and pathetic. And that breaks my heart into even smaller pieces. I seem to be the only one who can’t let go, who can’t move on.
“You’d want him to come to you just because he’s got nothing else left? You’d want him to choose you because there’s no better option?”
That’s like a scalpel to my stomach. “Of course not.”
“Then how long do you wait, honey? How long is too long? Have you ever thought of that? What is the cut-off for him choosing you first? Because you deserve to be first.”