When he pulled away, he looked right into my eyes. “My God, I love you, Courtney. I love your smart attitude, your sense of humor, and your breathtaking blue eyes that captured my heart the first time I ever looked into them.”
He stepped back and let my bra fall away. His eyes traveled up and down my body in a greedy way, and I felt the blush hit my cheeks. I’d never had anyone look at me the way he was, and I felt embarrassed and so sexy at the same time.
He took both my hands and walked us into the shower. He grabbed the soap and the washcloth and started to soap it up. He began washing his body as I stood under the hot water. I took the soap and washcloth from him and took over cleaning his body. He closed his eyes, and I bit down on my lip as I moved my hand down to his dick before I began stroking it.
“Shit, Court, don’t do that, or I won’t be able to make love to you.”
I quickly stopped and smiled. He still had his eyes closed, and I wanted to jump up and down from knowing how I was making him feel. I internally hugged myself before my eyes landed on the tattoo on his chest. I used my finger and traced it.
“My heart,” I said.
His eyes quickly opened, and he whispered, “Yes.”
I chewed on my lower lip, trying to get the courage to ask him about it.
“When I finally realized who my heart would always belong to, I got this tattoo. I’ve never told anyone what it meant, except for Layton. I didn’t know you knew Latin,” he said with a smile.
I nodded my head. Who does his heart belong to? I remembered he had been with Anna when he got this done, and I instantly began feeling sick.
“I, um…grew up Catholic, and my parents insisted I learn Latin, so I began studying it when I was twelve.”
He let out a small laugh. Then, he took his finger and placed it on my chin. He lifted my head up until I was looking into his eyes. They were so beautiful and blue right now.
“You’re my heart, Courtney. My heart will always belong to you. Always.”
I sucked in a breath of air. “But…” I shook my head. “But you were with Anna when you got this, and—”
He moved his finger up to my lips. “I never loved Anna like I love you. I cared about her, but I never loved her. I never saw my future with her in it. I only ever saw you. I only ever wanted you in my future, Courtney.”
I couldn’t hold back my tears anymore. I must be dreaming. I have to be dreaming. I started to panic. He has to know I’ve always loved him. I’ve always wanted him and dreamed about him, too.
“Reed…I’ve always loved you. I’m so sorry for being so stupid and picking Mitch over you. It’s just…it’s just that I’ve never in my life felt this way. When I first saw you…the way my heart felt…the sound of your voice…how it all affected me…I was so scared. And then…oh my God, your damn name!”
Reed let out a laugh as he threw his head back.
“I wanted you so much that it frightened me. I was so scared that you’d hurt me. You were my dream, Reed, and I didn’t want my dream to turn into my nightmare.”
He looked into my eyes as he stopped laughing, and his smile faded. “I was scared, too, Court…more than you know. When I look back at how stupid we both acted…” He shook his head. “The last thing I ever want to do is hurt you, and I feel like I’ve hurt you so much already. I hate that I’ve hurt you.”
I was stunned when I saw a tear slide down his face. If he had been standing under the water, I would have never seen it. My heart slammed in my chest, and I let out a sob.
“Reed…I need to move out of this darkness I’ve been living in. I need your love to help me do that. I don’t want to be scared anymore,” I said as I began crying harder.
“Courtney…” he whispered.
He picked me up and began kissing me. I wrapped my legs around him, and with each second that passed, I felt myself finally being led out of the dark.
“I’m going to make love to you, baby,” he said against my lips.
Shower sex! Oh, hell yes! This just keeps getting better!
He turned around and pushed me against the back of the shower.
I wanted to scream out, I’m about to have wall sex in a fucking shower and with the man of my dreams!
I pulled on his hair as I brushed my lips against his and whispered, “Yes.”
The moment I felt him inside me, I began crying again.
“Am I hurting you, Court?” he asked as he looked into my eyes.
I quickly shook my head. “No. Oh God, no, Reed. It feels like heaven.”
With the way he was moving in and out of me so slowly and passionately, I could feel his love pouring into my body, washing away every bad memory. I never wanted this moment to end.
Just when I thought it couldn’t get any better, I looked into his eyes and said, “Reed…I’m going to come.”
The second I began calling out his name, Reed began to move faster. I felt myself squeezing him, and when he looked into my eyes, I knew this was real. This wasn’t a dream, and I knew he would never turn this into a nightmare.
He started gasping for a breath, and the look in his eyes turned to fear. “I’m not wearing a condom, Court.”
I smiled. “It’s okay…on the pill. Please…I need all of you, Reed.”
With that, he began calling out my name, and I felt his warm liquid enter my body. I threw my head back against the shower wall and closed my eyes. Nothing had ever felt so perfect to me.
He held me for the longest time, neither one of us saying a word.
When he pulled back and his eyes pierced mine, he whispered, “I love you.”
Then, he began kissing me, and we each whispered our names against each other’s lips.
While I caught my breath and tried to keep my knees from giving out on me, I leaned one arm up against the shower wall as I held Courtney with the other. I’d never in my life experienced what I just had while making love to her. Every fear I’d ever had about hurting the one person I loved so much had seemed to vanish as she whispered out my name. I slowly slid her down, and then I put my hands on the shower wall on either side of her as I tried to catch my breath.
I just made love to Courtney. I just made love to the only girl I’ve ever loved. I shook my head and tried to keep myself from crying like a pussy. God, I hope I made that special for her. I closed my eyes and took in a deep breath.
When I felt her hands on my face, I opened my eyes to see her beautiful smile. Her blue eyes seemed to be shining, and I wasn’t sure if it was from the lights or not.