Leanan Sidhe
I was used to being the hunter. If I saw something I wanted, I stalked it, smelled it, made it mine.
By “it” I mean “him,” of course. I liked them young, talented, male. The more handsome the better. Sweetened the deal. I had to look at them until they died, so they might as well be pretty.
I wasn’t cruel. I was generous. Every one of them begged me for what I gave him: beauty, inspiration, death. I turned their ordinary lives into something extraordinary. I was the best thing that ever happened to every single one of them.
Really, I wasn’t so much hunter as benefactor.
But today, in this autumn wood, I was neither. Someone had summoned me, pulled me from my intangible form into a real body. I didn’t see anybody here, but I could still smell the remnants of a spell. I could hear my footfalls on the dry leaves, and the sound made me uneasy. I felt vulnerable in this blood-red wood, noisy and exposed in my form as a human girl, and I wasn’t used to it. All around me smelled of burning thyme and burning leaves, summoning spells and fall bonfires. As soon as I found a bit of human thought to ride on, I was getting out of here.
“Hello, faerie.”
I turned around, just in time to see the iron rebar shoved through my face.
James
Music is my life.
I read all the brochures for the Thornking-Ash School of Music before I applied. The brochures said the school would nurture our already promising musical abilities. They promised to challenge us academically. The brochures whispered tales of us emerging from high school as multitalented super-teens sporting academic skills, who would slay Ivy League applications with a single thrust of our extracurriculars.
At the time, I thought—cool. And plus, Deirdre was going, so I had to.
But that was before I actually went. Once I got there, I found out that school is school is school, as Margaret Thatcher would say. Six or half a dozen. Of course, I’d only been at Thornking-Ash for seven days, so maybe I wasn’t giving it enough time. But patience was not really my strong suit. And frankly, I just didn’t see how taking a few music theory classes and sleeping in a dorm room was supposed to make us any different from regular high-schoolers.
I’d probably have felt differently if I played the damn cello or something, because then I could be in one of the eight million performance groups on campus. When people said “musician,” they never seemed to mean “bagpiper.” If I heard the phrase “folk musician” one more time, I was going to hit someone.
Anyway, on days one through six, we (my fellow classmen and I) got “orientated.” We learned where all our classes were, the names of our teachers, when meals were served in the dining hall, and that the door to the fourth floor of my dorm stuck. By day five, I knew what I was doing. By day six, it was second nature.
By day seven, I was bored. On that seventh evening, I sat in my brother’s car and listened to music served angry with a side dish of longing. I had read somewhere that scientists had done a study where they played rock music and classical music to two different sets of rats. I don’t remember the details, but after a couple weeks of the study, the classical music rats were peacefully climbing the corporate ladder and wearing Birkenstocks and the rock music rats had gone cannibal and torn each other to bits. Without knowing what band the rock rats had to listen to, I’m not sure what the study was supposed to prove. All I know is, if I had to listen to Pearl Jam for two weeks solid, I’d eat my roommate too.
Anyway, I knew it was the seventh evening because I had seven marks on the back of my right hand. Six upright marks and one slash sideways to make the seven. I sat there in my own little world with its gray interior and turned the bass up so high I felt it in my butt cheeks. There were strict sound limits in the dorms, especially when students could be practicing, so it was hard to find a place to listen to music. That’s irony, baby.
I watched the sun sear a red path behind my dorm building. Unlike the rest of the academic buildings, which were stately, column-fronted Georgians, the dorms had no pretensions. They were square boxes with a thousand unblinking eyes for windows.
In the car, the music was loud enough that I didn’t hear the tapping on my window at first. When I did finally, the face looking in at me surprised me for some reason: round, ordinary, unsure. My roommate, Paul. He was an oboe player. I think the school thought we would get along together because both our instruments had reeds or something, because we certainly didn’t have anything else in common. I rolled down the window.
“Do you want fries with that?” I asked.
Paul laughed, way harder than my words had warranted, and then looked proud of his own daring. I think I scared him.
“Dude, that’s funny.”
“Just one of the services I offer. What’s up?”
“I was heading up to the room to work on, you know, the”—he waved a notebook at me as if it would mean something—“calculus homework. You still want to work on it?”
“Want? No. Need? Yes.” I turned down the radio. I was suddenly aware that I had goose bumps across my arms, despite the heat of the day. I pulled my arm into the car. My psychic subconscious was whispering at me in some language I didn’t understand, flooding cold through me in a subtle warning: something weird is afoot here. It was a feeling I thought I’d left behind, something I hadn’t felt since this summer. I managed to look back at Paul. “Yeah, sure.”
Paul’s face split into relief, as if he’d expected me to say something else, and he started to chatter about our calculus teacher and the kids in the class. Even if I hadn’t been somewhat preoccupied by the iciness trickling along my skin, I wouldn’t have listened. People talk too much, and generally if you listen to the first thing they say and the last, the middle will take care of itself.
A sudden phrase pulled my attention back to Paul, like a single voice rising out of many, and I spun the knob on the radio all the way, switching it off.
“Did you say, ‘So sing the dead’?”
Paul frowned. “Huh?”
“So sing the dead. Did you say it?”
He shook his head firmly. “No, I said, ‘To sing today.’ I had sight-singing. With—”
I opened the car door, nodding before he’d even finished his sentence. Even without the radio on, I heard music. And it pulled at me, important in a way that Paul would never be. I had to work to pull a sentence together for him. “Hey, let’s congeal at the room in a few minutes, okay? Just a couple of minutes.”