First I sponged him off and fixed his covers. Then I got some Nyquil from the cabinet and pestered him until he roused enough to swallow it. But he didn’t seem to register who I was, just moaned, rolled over and went back to sleep. To take care of them, I had to clear my day, though. I had a twinge in calling in to work so soon after my first missed day. Hopefully, Mrs. Keller didn’t take it for an imminent disciplinary problem. I faked being sick and she said it was better for me to stay home. Hurdle one, overcome. The next problem was my practicum.
I didn’t have the woman’s phone number, so I sent an email.
Dear Ms. Roberts: I woke up this morning with a fever. Sorry I can’t make our meeting this afternoon. I’ll see you Friday.
While this might impact her impression, I’d never leave Sam and Ty when they needed me. One last thing to do. While Ty’s work number was in his cell phone, I couldn’t really call in for him. So I went to his studio and swirled the mouse to wake up the computer. No password. I opened his mail account, searched for “Bill” and was relieved when a few emails popped up with the company info in the man’s signature. I read a few emails between them to get an idea of Ty’s tone with his boss. Then I typed,
Bill, sorry I can’t make it to work today. Sam’s sick and my throat’s on fire. I figure you’d rather I contain the germs. Back as soon as I can. Ty.
A few minutes later, a reply popped up.
No problem, kid. Feel better.
Whew. I felt like I’d just completed an undercover mission. Relieved, I went into the kitchen to see about the soup Sam wanted. There was chicken in the freezer and I found noodles in the cupboard. Carrots, celery and onion completed the recipe, and I quietly set the chicken to boiling. I didn’t have much else to do, so I took a nap on the sofa while waiting for the chicken to fall off the bone and for the water to turn into stock.
At eleven, I checked on them, but they were both still asleep. I’d wake them when the soup was ready. I strained the broth, then added the vegetables. Half an hour later, the noodles went in, and I had homemade soup. I made a tray for Sam and carried it to his room with some herbal tea and toast. He was awake, but in bed, like I’d asked.
“I went to the bathroom,” he told me. “But I got back in. I have to rest.”
“Good job. Hungry?”
“A little. Throat still hurts.”
“Maybe the soup will help. Eat it and I’ll get you a scoop of ice cream, okay?”
Sam brightened. “Deal.”
Hopefully, they had some. If not, I’d get my stash from the freezer. I chatted with him as he ate, pretending to tickle Mr. O’Beary. They did, in fact, have some vanilla ice cream, so Sam ate that with a gleeful expression. He seemed to be feeling somewhat better, but to make sure he rested more, I read to him until he fell asleep. Finally. I was worried about Ty, too, but I knew he’d prefer me to look after Sam while he couldn’t. Yet he hadn’t eaten anything since I’d been here, and I had no idea what fluids he had the night before. He might be getting dehydrated.
So I made a tray for him next, same menu as Sam, and I carried it into his room. He didn’t seem quite as feverish, and when I sat down on the bed, his eyes opened. Ty almost spilled his lunch trying to shove me aside in panic. “Sam!”
“He’s fine. He’s asleep. He had tea and juice and soup and medicine. Don’t worry, okay? I’ve taken care of everything.”
He looked more than a little loopy from the flu meds. “Work?”
“Handled. Eat some soup or Nurse Nadia will get cranky.”
With a bleary smile, he let me prop him against his pillows. Exhaustion was likely making this bug hit Ty harder than Sam. Kids were usually resilient, and neither of their fevers seemed high enough to warrant a doctor visit. With my help, he downed most of his soup and half of his tea, then he stumbled to the bathroom.
“What day is it?” He seemed to be fumbling to remember my schedule.
“A sick day,” I said firmly. “Back to bed.”
By evening, they were both feeling a lot better. Sam and Ty were curled up watching TV when I brought the last round of soup, tea and medicine. Sam glanced up at me with a sleepy smile, then he said to his dad, “I knew she’d fix us.”
Ty froze. Before, he was relaxed, groggy, obviously feeling like shit, but enjoying the rare chance to watch cartoons with his son. But I saw it dawn on him that I shouldn’t be here—that we had separate lives—and this wasn’t one of our weekends. My presence didn’t speak to friendship or sex, but something else entirely. I knew what it said; that I loved them enough to put my life on hold, if they needed me.
And it was true.
“Why are you even here?” It was the first time he’d thought to ask.
“I went upstairs to get her,” Sam answered.
Shit. That won’t help, buddy. Instinctively, I understood that Ty wouldn’t like learning how much Sam trusted me. It wasn’t like I was using the little guy to get closer to his dad. Hell, I’d never do that. But Ty wore a sharp, terrified look, like all of him was recoiling.
“You should’ve called Grandma,” Ty said gently.
“That’s stupid. Nadia is right upstairs, and she loves us.”
Ty’s throat worked. His eyes met mine, darkness swirling. “But Grandma’s feelings might be hurt. You know she enjoys taking care of you.”
“Oh.” Sam was crestfallen, mouth trembling. “I didn’t think of that. I was scared cuz you didn’t get up.”
Seeing that Sam was about to cry, Ty hugged him around the shoulders. “Don’t worry about it. You did a good job.”
Maybe if I leave now, it’ll be okay.
“I have to get going,” I said.
Ty didn’t get up, didn’t let go of Sam, and his voice was too quiet. “Okay. Thanks. We’ll be fine from here.”
Without you, his look added.
All that night, I waited for a text but it didn’t come. The next day, I went to work with a knot in my stomach that only swelled with Ty’s silence. Sam was back in school, completely recovered. Mrs. Keller didn’t seem to realize I’d lied and that made me feel worse.
She even patted me on the arm. “So glad you’re feeling better. A number of kids were out yesterday, too. I think something’s going around.”
Her assistant made a sour face. “This time of year, there always is.”
In my classes, I was a zombie, staring at the professors droning on. After failing twice to take notes, I gave up and recorded the lectures. Once I squared things with Ty, I’d feel better. Right? The ache in my chest didn’t abate as I drove home. If anything, the feeling intensified as I parked outside our building. He’s probably not even home yet. I didn’t see his car, so I went upstairs and tried to read some assigned chapters, but the words danced before my eyes. My stomach churned until it hurt. Around six, my phone finally pinged. With trepidation, I flicked open the message.