“I have never felt that way.” I grabbed his hands and kissed him softly on the lips.
“You’re the blood in my veins as well, my love. We were made for each other.”
“I feel like we’re saying our vows.” He laughed and held me close. I could feel his heart beating beneath me and I snuggled into him tighter, loving the feel of his warm body next to mine. There was nothing better than this moment. Absolutely nothing.
Chapter 7
Zane
I stared at the computer screen in front of me, and I thought my mind was going to explode. There was so much that went into planning a wedding. I understood why Lucky was so frustrated in planning everything. It just seemed like the lists went on: flowers, table covers, table pieces, guest lists, invitations, rings, the dress, the tuxedo, the bridal party, it just went on and on. And I wasn’t sure that Noah’s idea was so good now that I was in the planning stage. I had no idea what she liked or what she would want. Absolutely no idea. I didn’t even know if she should wear a white dress, I didn't even know what size dress to get. What if I got it wrong? She was pregnant and growing bigger every day; what if I got a dress that didn’t fit, that would ruin everything! I sighed as I stared at the screen again. I didn’t even know if I should plan a honeymoon or bachelorette parties. What friends would I invite for her? Would she want a male stripper? Not that there was any way in hell that I would let her have a stripper there trying to rub up on her. Hell no!
“What’s up, bro?” Noah walked into the study and I sighed.
“Just trying to plan this wedding.”
“Oh, awesome.”
“Not awesome.” I shook my head. “Trust me, it’s so not awesome.”
“What’s going on?”
“Absolutely nothing. I have no idea what I’m doing. I have no idea what she likes or want she wants. I’m a f**king awful fiancé and I’m going to make an even worse husband.”
“Calm down, bro.” Noah started laughing. “You’re being way too hard on yourself. I don’t think many men could plan a wedding.”
“Then why did you convince me to do this shit?” I almost shouted. “I have no idea what the f**k I’m doing. So I’m going to ruin Lucky’s big day and she doesn’t even know.”
“Take a deep breath.” Noah plopped down in the chair across from me. “You have time. What date are you planning for?”
“What date am I planning what for?” I shook my head at him in exasperation.
“The wedding, dear brother. The wedding.”
“Oh,” I shrugged. “I have no f**king idea.”
“No need to swear. Pull out a calendar and let’s check some dates.”
“Fine.” I opened my organizer and handed it to him.
“Well, you’re the one who’s going to choose it, bro.”
“I have no clue.” I glared at him and he sighed.
“Okay, let’s see. I think we should do it fairly soon. It’s still early summer, it’s nice out. What about in three weeks?”
“Three weeks?” I made a face. “That seems awfully soon.”
“It’s not going to be anything big. You want to do it while Lucky is still comfortable in her own skin. She is having twins, she may have to go on bed rest or something.”
“What?” My heart stopped for a moment.
“I mean I don’t know if she will, but she may. The sooner the better. Tell her you want to take a family trip before the babies come.”
“I guess I could say that, and then see if Sidney and Betty could come as a surprise.”
“You going to tell Dad?”
“What’s the point?”
“Yeah,” Noah looked down and then back up at me. “I don’t know how we ended up with the parents that we did.”
“Have you spoken to your mom?”
“What’s the point?” He shrugged, but I could see the pain in his eyes. “She doesn’t exist to me.”
“She loves you.”
“No, she doesn’t.” He shook his head. “And I’m okay with that. I have you and Skylar and Lucky.”
“You can tell yourself that as much as you want.” I grabbed his hand. “But we both know it’s not true. She’s your mom. You love her. Give her another chance.”
“She doesn’t deserve it.”
“We all deserve it.”
“You’re a better man than me. I don’t want her in my life.”
“Don’t close the door, Noah. Think about it.”
“As long as we’re talking about thinking about things. I think you need to call Leeza.”
“Leeza?” I made a face. “What does that bitch have to do with anything?”
“I know you don’t like her, but she is Lucky’s best friend.” Noah gave me a look. “She’d likely know what Lucky likes, right?”
“I guess so,” I shrugged. “What does that matter?”
“She can help you plan the wedding.”
“No way in hell.” I shook my head vehemently.
“Stop thinking about your own feelings for a moment. Who knows Lucky better than any of us? I know you hate to think that perhaps someone else was closer to her at one moment in time, but Leeza is her best friend. She can give you some good advice.”
“Or she can set me up and ruin the wedding.”
“I don’t think she’ll do that. From what Lucky’s told me, Leeza is or was a solid friend. I think that it’s worth a try. Give her a call. You might be surprised at how helpful she is.”
“Trust me, I would be very surprised if she was helpful in any way.”
“Give it a try.”
“Okay, okay, I’ll call her.”
“Good.” Noah stood up. “I’m going to take Skylar out for some ice cream, want anything?”
“Are you sure she should be having so much sugary stuff?”
“Huh?” Noah made a face. “What are you talking about?”
“I don’t know, but she seems to have a lot of sugary stuff. I don’t know if that’s good for her.”
“I don’t think it’s hurting her, super Dad.”
“I’m not trying to put you down, Noah. But Lucky was talking about the three of us taking a parenting class, and I was thinking maybe it would be a good idea.”
“So you’re already calling me a shitty father.”