“What do you mean?”
“I can tell you’re upset.”
“How?” I asked, surprised. “I didn’t say anything.”
“You didn’t need to tell me, Riley. I know you like I know the back of my hand.”
“Uh huh.”
“So what’s wrong?”
“I don’t want to talk about it,” I mumbled and lay back on the bed next to him. “It’s embarrassing.”
“You don’t have to be embarrassed around me.”
“I know.” I turned to face him, and he was staring at me with his concerned hazel eyes. I stared into his eyes and tried not to focus too much on how handsome his face was.
“Tell me, Riley.”
“I just feel stupid because I’ve never kissed a boy before.”
His brow furrowed. “Why does that make you feel stupid? There’s nothing wrong with that.”
“I’m the only girl who hasn’t been kissed.” I blushed.
“So that just makes you even more special.”
“Whatever.” I shook my head and groaned. “I feel like a loser.”
“You’re not a loser.”
“I just don’t know what to do,” I admitted shyly. “I feel like I don’t know what to do if a boy kisses me.”
“Has a boy tried to kiss you?” He frowned.
“Not really.” I made a face, and he laughed, suddenly carefree again. “I guess guys just don’t like me.”
“Don’t be silly. You’re beautiful.”
I made another face and he pulled me closer to him.
“Don’t make a face at me.”
“I’m not.” I was mere inches away from him now, and I could feel my heart racing.
“Liar.” He grinned and leaned closer to me. “Close your eyes.”
“Why?” I stared into his eyes, feeling completely breathless.
“Because I’m going to teach you how to kiss and I want you to concentrate on the movement of my lips.”
“Oh, uh, okay.” I blinked rapidly, swallowing hard. I didn’t know what to say, and ‘thank you’ sounded too lame.
I closed my eyes and waited. I was unprepared for the warm feeling that filled me as I felt his lips pressed softly against mine. I lay there still and unmoving as he kissed me, and I heard him chuckle as he pulled away from me.
“You can kiss back, Riley,” he laughed.
“Sorry, what?” I opened my eyes slowly, feeling disoriented.
“I said, kiss back. If you just lay there like a fish, it’s not going to be fun.”
“Oh, my bad.”
“Okay, let’s try this again.” He smiled wickedly. “Keep your eyes open this time.”
“Okay,” I mumbled and took a deep breath. I waited for him to lean forward again.
“Stare into my eyes and move towards me. You’re going to instigate the kiss this time.”
“But I don’t know what to do.”
“That’s what I’m teaching you.” He grinned.
“Okay.” I took a deep breath and slowly leaned towards him.
I stopped right before my lips touched his, and I could see the humor in his eyes. I gently pressed my lips against his and waited to see what was going to happen next. Hudson just lay there for a second and I didn’t know what to do, but then he leaned towards me and grabbed my hair, pushing my face into his. I felt his lips crushing down on mine and kissed him back, trying to mimic the movement of his lips. I reached my hands up to his hair and stared into his eyes. Hudson’s lips crushed into mine, and I felt the tip of his tongue touching my lips.
I sprang back then and gasped. “What are you doing?” I questioned him with wide eyes.
“Teaching you how to kiss.”
“But you used your tongue.”
“It’s called a French kiss, Riley.”
“But we’re not in France,” I mumbled, feeling stupid. I knew my face was burning a deep shade of red, and I could see that he was laughing at me from the sparkle in his eyes.
“You can’t tell me you’ve never heard of a French kiss before.” There was shock in his eyes and he laughed slightly.
“You’re a jerk.” I pushed his shoulder hard.
“No.” He grabbed my hand. “I’m your teacher.” He leaned towards me again and brought my face towards his. “Close your eyes and do what you think is right.”
“What I think—”
Hudson’s lips interrupted my speech and I closed my eyes, trying to let my body and not my brain guide me. His lips were soft at first, and I felt myself kissing him back gently, but then his fingers ran through my hair and he pulled my face closer to him. His tongue deftly slipped into my mouth, and I slowly pushed my tongue into his mouth, enjoying the unexpected warm feelings that were coursing through me.
His tongue met mine, and I allowed my tongue to touch his. It tasted and felt funny, and I pulled away a little bit. Hudson pulled my face back towards him, and I allowed his tongue to enter my mouth again. This time, his tongue was rougher as it explored my mouth as if looking for cavities. My eyes popped open as he ran his hands down my side and rolled me into my back.
His eyes looked down at me with an unfamiliar emotion, and I felt his body crushing down onto mine. I gazed up at him and ran my hands down his back, not knowing what to do. I shifted on the bed beneath him and suddenly he froze and jumped off of the bed.
“Okay, great. I think you get the idea.” He walked back to his computer and sat down at his desk without looking at me.
“Oh, okay.” I sat up, feeling confused and stared at his back. “Is everything okay, Hudson?”
“Yeah, yeah, it’s fine.” His voice sounded gruff, and I swallowed hard.
What had happened? Was I such a bad kisser that he was disgusted by me?
“I’m going to leave now.”
“Fine,” he mumbled and clicked the keys on his laptop.
“Thanks,” I whispered, standing at his door.
I gently rubbed my lips, not really believing what had just happened. Had I really just kissed Hudson? My heart was singing with joy, even though my brain was upset and confused.
“No worries,” he mumbled and sighed, but then he turned around and smiled. “There’s nothing to be worried about, Riley. You’re a good kisser.” He stared at me for a few moments and then continued. “If you were older, I’d be teaching you even more.”