He frowned. “From what.”
“Just all the rhetoric. It’s in my head, and even though I’m an adult and I live a thousand miles away from them, sometimes their judgments are just … all I can hear. And it’s not supportive stuff, if you get my drift.”
“You seem like the sort of daughter anyone would be proud of.”
Cait stared into his steady, kind eyes, and flushed at the compliment. Changing the subject, because she couldn’t handle the approval, she said, “You’re a good listener, anybody ever tell you that?”
“Maybe. But the fact that you think I am? Means something to me.”
“We’re back to the charm thing again, are we?”
G.B. winked at her. “Is it working?”
“Maybe.” She glanced away. “What about you? What’s your story?”
“Sad one, I’m afraid.” At this, he gathered the trash and got up, crossing over and pitching the remnants of their lunch into a thigh-high trash bin. “No clue who my father was and Mom died in childbirth. I was raised in an orphanage, and I made it out of there with a high school diploma. After that? I went to college on a scholarship, and have worked at any opportunity that has come my way ever since.”
“You’ve been on your own for a long time.”
“Taught me a lot. And you know what they say: That which doesn’t kill you gives you material for songs.”
“Still, that must have been a hard way to grow up.”
He shrugged and sat back down. “I’m an optimist, actually. And I believe in making destiny happen. You can’t wait for the world to give you what you want, you’ve got to take it.”
Cait tried to imagine what it would be like to have no family—talk about damage. Her mom and dad might have an agenda, but they did love her in their own ways.
For a moment, she thought of G.B. at the café, interacting with his fans, smiling and being so sincere about his gratitude. Lot of love coming at him in that situation.
Made sense that he’d want to fill a childhood void by performing.
“What?” he said with a smile. “You’re looking at me funny.”
“Sorry.”
“Don’t apologize … I like your eyes on me. Aw, look, you’re a blusher.” He put his arms on the table and leaned into them. “Be honest. Are you feeling sorry for me?”
“Not at all. But your life makes me respect you more.”
And there was another angle to it. She shouldn’t have been surprised to find that there was a real person behind the singer Teresa was so enamored of—but it had been hard not to put him on a pedestal because of his voice, and imagine that everything had been white-picket-fence for him. Funny, the disillusionment was not a bad thing, not at all. As he talked with her, sat with her, exchanged with her, he was becoming three-dimensional, something so much more than a handsome hypothetical with an awesome talent.
“Will you let me draw you,” she blurted. As soon as she realized what she’d said, she waved her hand. “Sorry, that’s just—”
“Yes,” he said with a slow, intimate smile. “I would love that.”
Cait reached into her purse without looking away from him, and took out her sketch pad.
“Don’t move—wait, you’re frowning.”
“Oh, I was hoping—never mind. This is fine, too.” As his smile came back, he relaxed again in the chair. “I can’t wait to see how you see me.”
Cait’s pencil found her right hand as she flipped to a new page and started fiercely putting lead on paper. Fast strokes, darting across the white expanse, pulling his features out of the flat plane, sculpting his face and shoulders, his glorious hair, his compelling, intense eyes—
“G.B.! What the hell?” A man leaned into the room. “I’ve been looking for you for a half hour. You can’t be late for this kind of stuff.”
G.B. bolted out of his chair and glanced at his watch. “Oh, God, Dave, I’m so sorry—”
“Spare me, okay? Just get your ass up to Rehearsal Three, now. We’ve moved in there because they’re installing new bulbs stage right and the noise is ridiculous.”
As the guy took off, Cait flipped her sketchbook shut and fumbled to get it in her purse. “I’m so sorry.”
“No, it’s okay, he’s tightly wound.” And yet G.B. looked stressed, all that relaxation gone. “I probably should go. I had no idea that so much time had passed.”
Cait got up, and in the process dumped half her purse out. “Damn it. No, no, I’ve got it—you’d better head off—I can find my way out.”
“Are you sure?”
“Absolutely—”
As she looked up, he came in fast, and before she knew it, he’d planted a kiss on her mouth. Quick, soft, but the kind of thing that left no room to question where he wanted things to go: Friendship was not it.
Straightening, he said softly, “I’ll call you tonight.”
“Oh, okay, sure, thanks…”
And then he was gone, running off, his footfalls receding down the hall.
Left by herself, Cait looked around the room, as if the vending machine or maybe the refrigerator Chuck wasn’t allowed in could give her advice, answers, strength.
After a dry spell that had lasted how long, two great guys appeared at once.
Well, one guy was great. The other was … a maelstrom.
Come to think of it, put the pair of them together, and you had the perfect man.
Nature, however, didn’t work that way in this case. And neither did she. She couldn’t do both; she just didn’t have it in her.
The question was, who did she pick?
Chapter Twenty-six
It had been a while since Adrian had been to the land down under—and no, not Australia. As he stared at the walls that stretched up indefinitely, his stomach turned, and he wished like hell he hadn’t told Jim he’d keep Devina busy.
Naturally, she’d propped herself up on her worktable, like she wanted to force him to look over there.
“Well,” she said in that deep, velvety voice of hers, “did you miss me?”
Glancing in the demon’s direction, Adrian felt his hatred surge. She was sitting there all crossed legs and cle**age exposed, clearly enjoying the fact that he’d given her a metaphysical jingle. Hah. What he’d actually like to “give” her was a stab in the back—just like what she’d had one of her harpies do to Eddie.