“It's not that bad. I basically grew up in one shack after another.”
He frowned at me, tipping his head quizzically. Oh, he was so sexy when he did that. Or anything.
Scoffing, he said, “You didn't live in a shack. You're exaggerating.”
I didn't want to tell him, or at least I didn't think I did, but I opened my mouth and did. “You know how it is in the country. You have a mobile home, only it's not mobile anymore. Just a metal box that gets hotter than hell in the summer and cold in the winter. You run out of room for all the kids and uncles that come to stay, so you get some lumber and your friends in construction come by and you build yourself an add-on. No permits, because it's at the back of the trailer, where it can't be seen from the road. Then a year later, you need some more space, and you salvage some more wood and you add on to the end of the last addition. Who needs a roof when you have plenty of tarps? If the snow or water comes in, you just throw on another tarp.”
“Brutal. You grew up like that?”
I walked around the pool table until I found the balls and started racking them. “My room wasn't so bad in the winter, with the blankets over the windows and the little space heater running. Wasn't so great when the power got cut off.”
“Was that in North Carolina?”
“Thereabouts.” I rolled the pool balls back and forth within the plastic triangle, their swirling colors and stripes hypnotizing, like an old-fashioned barber's pole.
“Wanna break?”
I shook my head vehemently. “Too scary. I feel like I'm going to put the tip right through the felt.”
“So what if you do? This felt needs replacing.” He chalked a cue and balanced it pointing upright, the base in his palm. That was when I noticed how high the ceiling was, to allow him to pull off the trick. He stretched his tattooed arm toward me, offering the cue like it was a pretty flower.
“First lesson is breaking,” he said.
I took the cue and got into position with the cue ball.
“I'm not gonna put my arms around you or touch you,” he said.
“Good.” I leaned over and rested the tip between my knuckles.
“But I want to.” He rested his elbows on the edge of the table and stared intently at me. “I want to put my arms around you to get you to relax. Drop your elbow, you're way too high. If you try to shoot like that, I will be buying new felt soon.”
“Sorry.” I lowered my arm and decreased the angle of the cue so it was closer to level with the table.
“Any time now,” he said.
I balked, standing up to chalk again and wipe my hands on my jeans. My eyes kept going to the floral wallpaper with the dart holes in it, and I imagined some young housewife from days gone by picking out the paper and pasting it on the wall with love.
“Where will you go?” I asked. “When they tear down the house?”
He caught me in those moss-green eyes of his and gave me a hungry look that seared me with desire. “Why do you ask? Are you looking for a roommate?”
I flushed under the heat of his gaze. My mind flashed an image of Sawyer walking around to my side of the pool table, turning me around, and sitting me on the edge as he kissed my lips and neck. Along with the image came the imagined sensation of his lips, hot and wet on my skin. How good it would feel. How good it would be to tell him everything, and have him love me, in spite of everything.
“I only have so much chalk,” he said, startling me back into the moment.
Dammit, why did he have to look so amused by everything I did?
I blew the excess chalk off the tip and leaned down again, glancing up for a nod of approval before I took the shot.
The wood connected with the ball, hard, and the cue trembled in my hand. The balls made a satisfying crack, but fewer than half of them even moved.
“I suck.”
He grinned and corralled the balls back into the triangle-shaped ball rack. “So, do it again until you don't suck. There aren't many things in life you get a second chance to get right, but this isn't life, it's a game.” With an easy grace, he rearranged the balls and nodded for me to try again. “Put the ball a little to the left of where you had it before. And hit it… hmm… what's the word?” He scratched the dark stubble on his chin.
“Harder?”
“Ah!” His eyebrows shot up. “Yes, hit the balls harder. Good idea.”
I tried again, with more power, and was rewarded with a few more balls rolling languidly out of formation.
Again. Finally, some action.
Again. Worse.
Again. Hopeless.
Again and again, one humiliating shot after another. I tried to go home, but Sawyer blocked my exit.
Again. A spectacular break, like the kind I'd seen guys at the bar do, with balls scattering. I whooped with glee as one ball sunk into a pocket.
“Wow,” he said. “Aubrey the Goddess of Sadness and Sarcasm, smiling and making excited noises. Now I've seen everything.”
I stood proudly, one hand holding the cue, the other hand on my hip. “Now if someone bets me that I can't break, I might not lose that bet.”
“Time for me to take you home, before you tire yourself out.”
Setting the stick in the corner with the others, I said, “Don't you want me to look at that thing you're working on?”
“It's up in my bedroom.”
“And?”
His Adam's apple bobbed as he swallowed. “And you're married. I wouldn't feel right taking you up there.”
I crossed my arms. What was that feeling I was having? I wanted to go upstairs, but my desire wasn't about seeing the art. I wanted to push him the way he'd been pushing me. I wanted to do the thing he said we couldn't.
Or did I?
I bit my lip and thought through our conversation from earlier, about dares. Was he daring me to go up to his bedroom? This was all a game to him. A game of seduction.
“Fine. Maybe next time,” I said, picking up my purse and putting it on my shoulder.
“I guess I could move the art down to here.”
“Whatever,” I said, crossing over to the front door. I didn't wait for another reply as I opened the door and stepped out on the porch. The skinny guy was still sleeping on the tattered sofa on the porch.
Sawyer came out the door just as my feet touched the front walkway.
“Thanks for the lesson,” I called over my shoulder.
“Don't you want a ride home? I've got a spare helmet here, so we can both have one.”
“I'm fine. I don't live far from here!”
“What street are you on?”