“Damn,” he says under his breath, though it sounds like praise.
He leans back as though he’s going to take it all in. Which gives me a second to fully appreciate him, since he’s down to his black boxers that are straining to keep certain parts of his body restrained.
I’m confident, until his gaze shifts and zeroes in on what I was worried about.
“What happened?” he asks, not sounding overly concerned or nosy, just curious.
He runs his fingers over two of the scars, and I catch his wrist, stopping him. I can’t stand them being touched.
He meets my eyes again, and the concern that was lacking begins to form. He’s too perceptive, so it’d be stupid to give too much away with my expressions.
“Car accident,” I tell him weakly.
It’s a lie, but I’m damn good at lying.
“The same as your parents?” he asks.
If he ever looked into it and found the name I stole, then he’d know that girl was not in the same accident as her parents.
“No. Can we not talk about this right now though?” I ask, my voice teasing now as I slide his hand up to cover my breast.
The heat in his eyes is instantly back, the concern washing away when he sees I’m okay. With slow prowess, he slides down on top of me, and his lips claim mine again.
Nothing else matters in this moment.
We kiss until we’re both grinding against each other, desperate for more. I need zero help getting ready, because I’ve never been so turned on in all my life.
He groans against me before finally lifting away from me again.
“Tell me to stop and I will,” he says softly, brushing his lips against mine again.
Just that bit of comfort means more than he knows, because I believe it coming from his lips.
When you read people like I do, you learn who’s honest and who isn’t. You learn to smell intentions.
“I don’t want to stop,” I say quietly, refusing to break the spell.
He leans over, grabbing his discarded jeans, and I grin when I hear the familiar rattling sound of a wrapper.
“Just so you know, I’ve had this thing in my wallet for a while. I really didn’t come with expectations—with hopes, yes, but not expectations,” he says, grinning when he sees my smile.
I arch an eyebrow playfully, and he kisses me again, getting readjusted on top of me. His hands move between us as he lifts his hips, and I resist the urge to look down and watch.
It’s sad to say that seeing him roll on a condom would probably send me spiraling into a premature orgasm. It’s surreal. I love this feeling. I want to bottle it and save it for rainy days.
When he leans up, I’m forced to watch, and I squirm as that ache grows more pronounced, more insistent. Fairly sure that ache is named desire.
He’s definitely not a small guy, but he’s also not freakishly endowed. Perfect.
I’m licking my lips before I can stop myself as he starts tugging my panties down. His eyes fall on the bare skin when he removes them completely and he leans down.
The second I feel his breath hit me, my hips jerk up, and I tug his hair, forcing him up my body.
“If you do that, I’ll be ruined. I need more,” I say just as my lips find his again.
I could seriously kiss him all day, as long as we’re also doing more.
Without any further begging, he pushes inside me in one swift thrust that has me breaking my lips away to gasp for air. He rocks his hips, and I realize there’s more there than I initially thought, because he goes deeper, filling me fuller.
He stares down at me, lust and longing oozing from his eyes as he keeps eye contact. No words are exchanged as he rocks his hips again, finding a spot inside me that I thought had died.
Sensory overload is a legit thing.
Everything on me is strung tight, just waiting to break. The more he moves over me, the tighter the strings get. My nails dig into his shoulders as he continues to watch the myriad of expressions I must be giving him as he unravels me thrust by thrust.
Then it hits. It hits hard.
Those strings break, and euphoria crackles across my body like a bomb that detonates in my core and explodes outward. It rolls across me, curling my toes, flashing behind my eyelids that shut at some point, and licks across my skin like hot, incredible flames.
When I cry out and thrash beneath him wildly, his rhythm changes, becoming more urgent. I hold on as he drags out my orgasm in a way I didn’t know was possible, and then he grunts, his hips jerking against me as he finds his own little version of heaven. At least I hope he feels this good.
Boneless and spent, my arms fall away from him as he drops to my body and kisses a trail down my neck. Definitely moving too fast, but I don’t care. We’re doomed anyway.
The monster never gets the prince. It’s always the sweet and innocent princess who wins.
My hands come up, and my fingers twist in his hair, enjoying this feeling while it lasts.
“I plan on a round two, but I’m not Superman. Just give me a few minutes, and I’ll make sure you want to do this a lot more,” he says against my neck, still nipping and kissing the flesh.
A smile curves my lips, and I sigh happily under him.
“I want to do this all the time.”
He chuckles against me, and I find myself hugging him, even though I don’t know when it started. He holds me to him, hugging me back.
“Good,” he says against me. “Because that was fucking perfect.”
It is perfect. Which is why I need to kill the monitoring channel in the living room so that it doesn’t work, lock my murder room, and make sure all my weapons stay in there from now on.
Chapter 9
I never came upon any of my discoveries through the process of rational thinking.
—Albert Einstein
LOGAN
“You got laid,” Craig says as I walk in, holding my coffee that I barely managed to get in time this morning.
I forgot what it was like to lose myself in a girl. And I know I’ve never lost myself in someone so much as I did last night and this morning. Lana is the most unexpected surprise of my life.
I keep waiting to find a flaw, but can’t seem to find one. No one can be that perfect. Not that I want to jinx it. I also don’t want to find out she’s married or something. So I’m close to doing the unthinkable, because she has my head all kinds of fucked up.
“Maybe,” I tell him, smirking when he groans.
“The Ice Princess took you but not me?” he asks as I drop to my desk chair and pull up the databases I need.
“It drives you that crazy she didn’t eat up your charm,” I drawl.
“There’s a reason I’m the face of this department, and it isn’t because I’m the best looking—though we both know I am. The point is, girls eat me up. Women, mothers, daughters, aunts, sisters, nieces… We fuck up, and I explain it away with a charming smile and an ‘aww shucks’ sort of attitude while throwing in a deep sense of remorse. Anything and everything will be forgiven if you have the right face. It’s the truth. Humans are shallow—all of us. Pardon me for finding it a little suspect that she literally had zero interest in me, yet turns around and fucks you.”
“I think Logan is way hotter than you,” Hadley chimes in, coming to prop up beside me as Craig scowls at her. “And despite what you think, not all women are that shallow. Most of us find someone attractive if they have the right qualities.”
“Bullshit,” Craig scoffs. “I’ve done plenty of research on the matter. I’m not just talking out my ass.”
I roll my eyes as they continue to bicker, and I start my search. No marriage certificate. No divorce. No children—not that I’d mind, but I’d still like to know. No…living relatives… Shit.
No one? She has no one at all? I already know she doesn’t have any personal social media. Just her business profiles, even though there’s no mention of her partner on any of them.
I don’t dig any deeper than that. I feel like I’ve invaded her privacy enough. Everything else needs to be things she tells me when she’s ready—like the car accident that scarred her.
It must have been a bad wreck, considering one scar travels from her left hip to her right breast. Another one is on her right side, jagged and large. They’re old. I could tell from looking at them.
I should have shown her my scars, but I was too busy exploring her body the rest of the night to give her time to explore mine. Every time she tried, I lost control, feeling her hands on me seemed to turn me into a horny teenager all over again.
“You have serious trust issues,” Hadley says, drawing me out of my own head.
I notice Craig is gone, but Hadley is reading the latest search over my shoulder. I close out of it and shrug.
“You had me research her background for priors, and now you’re checking her facts?”
She cocks an eyebrow at me.
“Ever met someone too good to be true? I was almost late for work this morning because I couldn’t seem to pry myself away from her. She literally has no flaws. She’s beautiful, smart, sassy, whimsical, and onboard with my hectic schedule, even though most girls immediately have an issue with it. She hasn’t once gotten annoyed with me having to cancel things. I showed up at her place unannounced, and she was twice as perfect as I thought possible. So yeah…I can’t help but be worried, because a guy can fall fast for a girl like that.”