My heart went from beating to screaming. No! I didn’t want it.
Q rocked again, his c**k hitting my g-spot in a perfect thrust.
I blanked out for a moment with pleasure, then stiffened as his finger swirled with lubrication, pressing hard. Coaxing, teasing, working my body against me.
“Q—don’t.” My heart flurried with panic not desire. My brain scrambled with the incredibleness of his c**k and the terror of his probing finger.
“You said you’d let me do anything.” With another press, he breached the seal of my body.
Pain.
Bitter pain.
Foreign pain.
Automatically I pushed back, horrified at the unwelcome entry.
I felt violated. Dirty.
I drew blood as my teeth clamped hard on my bottom lip, stopping myself from crying. I didn’t want to give away my fear. I didn’t want to excite Q any more than he was. His breathing rasped over me, drugged with desire.
With another thrust of his cock, he pressed his finger deeper. The overwhelming feeling of being too full—too stretched—made me feel…
I no longer knew.
I couldn’t discern if I hated it or loved it. It wasn’t known, and I wasn’t ready to understand what it meant.
“I can’t wait to f**k you here, Tess. Shit—” His finger hooked inside, stretching my body as his c**k drove upward. The combined pressure sent an extra thrill down my spine—my back snapped straight.
“It’s mine. Just like everything else about you.” Withdrawing his digit, he fisted his cock, sliding wetly out of me to nudge against my hole.
I couldn’t help it. My h*ps rolled forward. I wanted to run. I wasn’t ready. Not ready!
Q slapped my ass, amplifying the punishment from earlier, dragging me backward and sinking inside my pu**y.
I exhaled heavily, moaning in relief. I wanted him there. And only there.
His breathing was short and angry. “You won’t get away when I’m ready to take that part of you, esclave.”
The threat hung between us. My fearful question fell from my lips. “But not today?” Please say not today.
It took a never ending minute for Q to reply, but finally he huffed. “I won’t push you to do something you’re not ready.” Running his hands up my spine, he worked to my front, capturing my br**sts. “Not today.”
The relief melted the terror in my blood, filling me with quivering need. I thrust backward, causing his c**k to strike the top of my womb.
I wanted to say thank you but my brain was jumbled. I wanted to tell him I would be open—maybe, but all I wanted to focus on was him in me—together.
He groaned, using my h*ps as anchors, driving upward. “God, I want to come—”
I wished I could see him, understand his sudden hesitation. “Then come.”
He thrust again before pulling out. He stepped back, leaving me hanging with my arms pinned to my sides, not knowing what the hell was going on.
Q fumbled with the carabiner behind, untethering me from the chain. My weight shifted from ceiling to being crushed against the earth on lust-laden limbs. The moment I was free, Q spun me around, backing me up against the wall.
My shoulders slammed against the surface. I didn’t have time to breathe as he picked up a knife from a table close by.
My mouth went terribly dry.
His eyes were luminous, burning a path right to my soul. Hooking a fingertip under one of the knots, Q sliced it with a flick of his wrist.
We didn’t say a word as he cut off every loop and fetter. My heart bounced. I was empty without him. My eyes kept drifting to his glistening hard cock, wishing he would enter me again.
When the final rope fell away, we locked gazes.
Time stood still as we stared and stared and made promises and told stories and weaved our souls ever tighter together.
Q broke the spell, dragging a rough thumb over my lips. “Je t'aime.” I love you.
My body went heavy. I knew what he wanted.
Desire. Thick craving desire.
My eyes widened. Holy hell, I want it, too. Badly.
My eyes fell to the faded scar where he’d nicked just below his nipple the night in the carousel room. He’d let me suckle. He’d let me taste everything that he was.
Q smiled softly, keeping eye contact as he positioned the sharp blade over the scar and re-opened it with a shallow slice. The black ooze of blood in the dark sent my soul ricocheting around my body. It wasn’t right. It was so, so wrong.
But f**k, I wanted to taste.
My gaze glued to the trickle of blood. My mouth fell open as Q grabbed my waist, hoisted me up, and slid inside in one effortless move. His hands held me tight while I wrapped my legs around his hips, imprisoning him.
His eyes glazed, thrusting upward, filling me impossibly deep. “Take me,” he whispered, leaning back.
I couldn’t say a word as I curled into him, pressing my mouth against his chest. My tongue came out and ever so gently lapped his wound.
The instant the sharp metallicness of his blood hit my tastebuds, everything rewound, imploded, exploded, detonated—existed no more.
Everything was inconsequential compared to this man. I couldn’t let the past steal my future. I couldn’t let what I’d done fog my happiness. And I couldn’t, under any circumstance, let Leather Jacket and White Man steal my joy of pain.
I would never run again. I would never hide again. I would never fear Q’s delectable punishment.
I was home.
I’d been so caught up in his taste, I didn’t feel Q’s assault on my body. I returned to reality with a slam. Q’s face was tight, his h*ps pounding into me with rhythmic pulses, driving himself closer and closer to the end.
His teeth were bared. He looked strong and real and entirely dangerous.
My back bowed as he thrust harder, harder. I loved his possession—found ultimate bliss in his arms.
“I have to…Tess. Forgive me.” I cried out as his mouth latched onto my shoulder, the sharp puncture of teeth breaking my skin. He sucked deep, dragging my own essence into him.
It was the most basic of us. The life-force in our veins. The neural highway where our soul swam and gave animation to lifeless bodies. By drinking me, he not only took my body, but also my soul in liquid form.
An orgasm spiralled from nowhere. Spurred not from the exquisite joy of having Q inside me—but from the joy at knowing I belonged.
It wasn’t a body orgasm. It was more than that.
It was a soul orgasm.
Q braced himself, spreading his legs to thrust harder. My back bruised, my br**sts jiggled, and I threw myself into the brightest, sharpest release yet. The orgasm started thorny and almost unwilling, but Q relentlessly pursued it.