Who was doing what to whom.
He ground his face into me, eating me, going wild, and it felt fucking amazing. Mind-blowing, breath-stealing. Everything. I got it now. Beards were the best. His tongue was like a lick of heat, his lips silken smooth and so damn strong. That beard, however. Holy shit. Too many sensations, too much, and all I could do was take it. The man was damn skilled, but I didn’t want to think about how many women he’d practiced on. Forget that. Only now mattered.
I was so damn wet. He slid two thick fingers into me, working me inside and out. My whole body tensed unbearably tight, until it seemed like I might shatter. Just explode into chaos and love-struck confusion. Then he flicked his tongue back and forth across my clit, stopping to suck at it every other time, lips encasing my swollen, completely overexcited sex.
I couldn’t take it any longer. My whole body went boom.
I came with a shout, eyes open wide but unseeing. He’d colored my world in sparkles. Multitudes of little flashy lights, filling my mind and lighting me up. I just floated, lost in the feel-good chemical haze he’d induced. The mediocre to bad sex I’d had during my juvenile, idiotic, wild phase didn’t even begin to compare. Nothing in common with how Ben worked my body. The pleasure he gave me. Damn he was good at oral. Scarily so.
When the haze of blinky lights faded, he was busy pulling his shirt off over his head. Apparently undoing the buttons would have taken too long. He wiped off his mouth, dark gaze glued to me all the while. Next he toed off his boots and ripped into the pants—belt, button, and zip. Plain black boxer briefs outlined a monster of a hard-on. No wonder it wouldn’t fit. And the way he looked at me, like he wasn’t sure if he wanted to take a bite out of me or what. I don’t know. But his gaze slipped over me so warmly, belying the hunger in his eyes.
Then the boxers went down and he was climbing over me, hooking an arm around my waist to drag me back into the middle of the bed.
“Are we going to—”
“Yeah,” he said, then tore open a condom wrapper with his teeth. One-handed he rolled it on, the slippery, smooth latex rubbing against me between my legs.
“Good. That’s … that’s good.”
His moist lips covered mine, kissing me hard.
“Trust me,” he said, positioning the broad blunt head of his cock against my opening.
I nodded.
“Legs and arms around me.”
“Yes.” I did as told, wrapping him up tight.
“That’s it, sweetheart,” he murmured, flexing his hips.
His lips played with mine, tongue licking my jaw, my neck, as he worked his cock inside of me. Arms encircled my head and his beautiful face was so close, bristly cheek resting against mine, teeth nipping my ear. Now that I was plenty wet, things went smoother. But still, he was not a small man. He felt good, but … substantial. Thick. It might take me a while to get used to him.
And there weren’t enough words to explain how I wanted to get used to him, in all the ways.
“Wait.” I squirmed beneath him, tilting my hips to take him deeper. “Oh god, yeah. Like that.”
“There?” He surged forward, filling me, his hips pressing me deep into the mattress. I sighed and he moaned, his pelvis shifting restlessly against me.
“Yeah.”
“Fuck you feel good,” he said, face buried in my hair. “So fucking good.”
I flexed my thigh muscles, tightening my hold on him. Given half a chance, I’d never let him go. In return, he groaned, easing back to thrust forward again, slow and easy. The motion smooth and precise. Ben fucked me so sweetly, working himself deep into me in sure, steady strokes. Accustoming me to his presence. His body trembled with the effort, sweat dripping off his brow. I’d never experienced anything more perfect than being in bed with him. Being the focus of all his attention.
It was like we were each other’s whole world. Nothing else existed beyond the bed.
His mouth took mine, his hand slipping down between us to explore where we were joined. Fingers caressing the stretched lips of my sex, just above my still sensitive clit. I gasped and he smiled, adjusting his angle slightly so he rubbed against it. He fucked me harder then, pushing me up and up toward climax once more.
“Ben,” I panted.
His arms tightened, caging me in, keeping me safe. A hand slipped beneath my ass cheek then traveled up my leg, sliding over my sweaty skin. He grabbed ahold of my thigh, hard, fingers digging in. The familiar ecstatic tension spread through me, completing me. It was out of control. Everything about sex with Ben was out of control. The way his hard chest rubbed against my breasts and the single-mindedness in the way he watched me, gauging every response. His big body covered me, his cock filling me. Pleasure was the only possible response.
I came, shuddering, biting into his shoulder. I shook and shook, and he held onto me even tighter. He drove himself deep and came, one hand in my hair and the other still wrapped around my thigh.
Nothing could ever compare.
Ben collapsed beside me. He hit the mattress so hard I bounced into his side and stayed there, curling up against him. It took a while for the world to stop spinning, for us both to catch our breath.
My insides buzzed. Hell, my whole body buzzed. I hid my face in his skin, grinning like a fool. How incredible for me and him to be in the same bed doing the postcoital bliss thing. I’d been this happy, this certain of something, precisely never in my life. It wouldn’t be easy but it would be worth it. Mal and Anne would adjust, because eight years was nothing, really.
I rolled onto my side and snuggled into him. The dude had more than enough body warmth for both of us in the cool air-conditioning. Then, from somewhere close, came a buzzing.
Ben stirred, reaching down to snag his cell from the pocket of his jeans before tossing them aside. When he saw the name on the screen his whole body stiffened. The buzzing went on. His thumb slid across the front of the cell and he held it to his ear.
“Hey.”
A faint voice from the phone.
“No, no. I dropped her back at her room.”
More from the caller.
“For fuck’s sake, man. When will you get it through your head nothing’s going on? Girl’s not my kind.”
My heart stuttered. It hurt.
“Ha-ha. Yeah, fuck off. Go back to your bride. I’m heading to a bar uptown. Shilly’s playing. Said I’d join for a while.”
More talk.
“Yeah, I’ll tell him you said hi. Later.”
Above me, the ceiling swam blurrily, my vision wavering. Silly me, always so surprised. When would I learn?