But he was gripping my arms tight, whether in hope or fear, I don’t know.
Because I couldn’t hear him.
The rest of us finally went back to the scout ship, Mistress Lawson coming with us to help test the Mayor’s cure.
“I don’t know what to believe,” I say now, “only that it would be in his interests to save us.”
“So we have to base our decision on what suits him best?” Mistress Coyle says. “Brilliant, just brilliant.”
“We’re coming in for a landing,” Simone says over the comm system.
“I’ll tell you one thing,” Mistress Coyle says. “When we’re on that council together, he’ll learn that his days of out-manoeuvring me are over.” There’s a judder as we touch down. “And now,” she says, her voice burning with heat, “I’ve got my own speech to give.”
Before the engines are even properly off, she’s marched out of the room, down the bay door and into the crowds that wait for us, crowds I can see on the monitors.
She’s greeted by a few cheers.
But only a few.
And nothing at all like what the Mayor got back in town.
And then this crowd, led by Ivan and other voices, begins to boo her, too.
[TODD]
“Why would I harm the women?” the Mayor says to me across the campfire, as night begins to fall on his day of glory. “Even if you still somehow believe I’m bent on killing every one of them, why would I do it now at my moment of biggest triumph?”
“Why didn’t you tell me, tho?” I say. “That you were so close to a cure?”
“Because I didn’t want to risk your disappointment if I failed.”
He looks at me for a long time, trying to read me, but I’m so good at it now I don’t think even he can hear me.
“Can I make a guess at what you believe?” he finally says. “I think you want to get that cure to Viola as soon as possible. I think you’re worried Mistress Coyle won’t move fast enough on her tests because she won’t want me to be right.”
And I do think this. I do.
I want the cure to be true so bad I could almost choke.
But it’s the Mayor.
But it could save Viola.
But it’s the Mayor–
“I also think you want to believe me,” he says. “That I’d really do this for real. If not for her, then for you.”
“Me?” I say.
“I think I’ve figured out your special talent, Todd Hewitt. Something that should have been obvious from the behaviour of my son.”
My stomach tenses, with anger, with grief, like it always does when Davy’s mentioned.
“You made him better,” the Mayor continues, his voice soft. “You made him smarter and kinder and more aware of the world and his place in it.” He sets down his coffee cup. “And whether I like it or not, you’ve done the same for me.”
And there’s that faint hum–
Connecting us–
(but I know it’s there and it ain’t affecting me–)
(it ain’t–)
“I regret what happened with David,” he says.
“You shot him,” I say. “It weren’t nothing that just happened.”
He nods. “I regret it more with every passing day. With every day that I’m with you, Todd. Every day, you make me better. Knowing that I’ve got you to watch what I do.” He lets out a sigh. “Even today, in what is arguably the greatest victory I’ve ever had, my first thought was, What will Todd think?”
He gestures to the darkening sky above us. “This world, Todd,” he says. “This world and how it talks, how loud its voice is.” He drifts a little, his eyes unfocused. “Sometimes it’s all you can hear, as it tries to make you disappear into it, to make you nothing.” He’s almost whispering now. “But then I hear your voice, Todd, and it brings me back.”
I don’t know what he’s talking about, so I just ask, “Have you had the cure for the bands all this time? Have you just been holding it back?”
“No,” he says. “I’ve been having my men work round the clock so I could save Viola for you, Todd. To show you how much you’ve come to mean to me.” His voice is forceful now, almost emoshunal. “You’ve redeemed me, Todd Hewitt. Redeemed me when no one else would have thought it possible.” He smiles again. “Or even desirable.”
I still don’t say nothing. Cuz he ain’t redeemable. Viola even said so.
But–
“They’ll test it,” he says. “They’ll find it’s a cure, and then you’ll see that I tell you the truth. It’s so important, I won’t even ask you to trust me.”
He waits again for me to say something. I still don’t.
“And now,” he says, slapping his hands on his thighs, “it’s time to start preparing for our first council meeting.”
He gives me a final look, then heads back into his tent. I get up after a minute and go over to Angharrad, tethered with Juliet’s Joy by my own tent, eating her heart’s delight of hay and apples.
She saved Viola’s life up on that hill. I ain’t never forgetting that.
And now the Mayor’s offering to do it down here.
And I wish I could believe him. I want to.
(redeemed–)
(but how far–?)
Boy colt, Angharrad says, nuzzling my chest.
Submit! Juliet’s Joy snaps, her eyes wide.
And before I can say anything, Angharrad snaps back SUBMIT! even louder.
And Juliet’s Joy lowers her head.
“Girl!” I say, with amazement. “That’s my girl.”
Boy colt, she says, and I hold onto her, feeling her warmth, her fuggy horse smell tickling my nose.
I hold onto her and I think about redempshun.
{VIOLA}
“You are not going to be on the council with the Spackle, Ivan,” Mistress Coyle says, Ivan clomping in behind her into the scout ship. “And you are not allowed in here.”
It’s the day after we came back from town, and I’m still on my bed, feeling worse than ever, the fever not responding at all to Mistress Lawson’s newest combination of antibiotics.
Ivan stands there a moment, looking defiantly at Mistress Coyle, at me, at Lee on the other bed, at Mistress Lawson where she’s removing Lee’s final bandages. “You’re still acting like you’re in charge here, Mistress,” Ivan says.
“I am in charge here, Mr Farrow,” Mistress Coyle seethes back at him. “As far as I know, no one’s appointed you their new Mistress.”