Liz’s eyes bulged. “Oh, Jamie, we’re not…uh…we’re not dating.”
“Oh, yeah, of course,” she said, waving it off. “He mentioned that.”
“Yeah, just friends.” Liz hoped it would sink in.
“But seriously, you’re not uptight or anything! I mean I really like you!” she said, tossing her arms around Liz again.
“Well, thanks,” Liz said. She patted her back softly and then pulled away.
“I’m so glad that you’re here with him. He’s so much fun when you’re around. It’s not all about work this, the paper that.” Jamie gestured right and left and rolled her eyes. “He needs a good distraction.”
Liz really liked Jamie, but she couldn’t have this conversation. It was like Jamie had already convinced herself Liz and Hayden were good together. No matter what she said, she wasn’t going to be able to persuade his sister otherwise either.
“Maybe we should head back,” Liz suggested.
Jamie glanced down at her phone and nodded. “I think James is here!”
They walked out of the bathroom and Jamie immediately launched herself at her boyfriend. They disappeared on the dance floor a second later, leaving Hayden and Liz alone once more.
“You want another drink?” he asked with a cute smirk on his face.
Liz nodded and followed him to the bar. He ordered them both another round of drinks. As they waited, he moved her back against the bar and squared her in with his body. One of his hands brushed her messy waves off to one shoulder and the other slung across the back of the bar.
“Did I tell you how amazing you look tonight?” he murmured, leaning forward to speak directly into her ear.
A shiver crept down her back at his nearness. She shook her head.
“You look amazing,” he repeated.
“Thank you,” she said softly, not even sure whether he could hear it over the music.
The bartender passed drinks to Hayden, who handed Liz hers. “Come on. Let’s dance some more.”
They spent the rest of the evening trapped in a mass of dancers at the bar. Topher and Phillip left with Anne and Abigail later. They stopped by long enough to say good-bye and smile smugly, as if they knew Liz hadn’t believed they would score. Jamie started feeling sick shortly after that. James apologized to them for her. Hayden closed his tab and then helped James haul her out of the bar. Hayden left her with James to flag down a cab. A few minutes later one showed up that would take them back to the apartment.
“Hayden, you’re not coming with?” Jamie asked, looking like she might throw up any second.
“We’ll be back soon,” he said with a smile as he tucked her into the car. Jamie lay back against James just as Hayden shut the door.
“We’re not going back?” Liz asked, furrowing her brow.
“I wanted to show you something. Hope that’s okay,” he said, wrapping his arm around her shoulders and directing her to walk in the opposite direction of his apartment.
A few minutes later, they stood in front of the Reflecting Pool once more. Her feet were sore from walking the few blocks to their destination in heels, but it was a pretty sight. Everything was all lit up, and it was late enough that no one else was around.
Hayden pulled her toward the brightly lit Lincoln Memorial. She trekked up the stairs in her heels until she stood right in front of Lincoln’s enormous statue.
“I told you I’d get you your view,” he said. She could sense him inching closer to her.
“It’s beautiful, Hayden.” She continued to stare at the memorial.
“Lizzie,” he whispered.
She turned then at the way he said her name. He had never called her Lizzie before. She kind of liked the way it sounded coming out of his mouth. Hayden Lane, who was always completely controlled, was struggling for just an ounce of control around her. When had the world completely flipped upside down?
His hand came up and stroked along her jaw. He stared down into her big blue eyes and then his mouth found her lips softly, as if he was testing the water.
Liz stood very still. Her head was spinning as she felt her body betray her by reacting to his kiss. Tingles blossomed in her chest and awakened that old feeling she had kept hidden inside her for two years. This wasn’t supposed to happen. This was Hayden. He wasn’t supposed to be interested in her like that. And now…he was.
“Hayden,” she whispered, pulling back. “I thought you said that we couldn’t because of the newspaper.”
“I changed my mind,” he said.
“Hayden, I…” She trailed off as he kissed her once more.
“Shhhh,” he urged, “just kiss me.”
His hands were holding her face softly, and then when he kissed her again his hesitation was gone. He kissed her as if he had wanted to do it for a long time. He kissed her as if he would never get enough of her. He prodded her mouth open with his tongue and volleyed with her. When he dragged his teeth along her bottom lip, she took a swift breath. His lips were soft and warm and so entirely foreign. Her hands were gripping his shirt and, almost without thinking, drawing him in closer.
Butterflies fluttered in her stomach as the sexual tension between them contracted and then cracked wide open.
Hayden sighed and kissed her lips once more. He moved her arms up around his neck and grabbed her around the waist, holding her in place against him.
“Liz,” Hayden murmured.
“Mmm-hmm?”
“I should have done this a long time ago.”
Liz laughed lightly.
“Not kissing you last semester when I had a chance was a huge mistake,” Hayden said against her lips. “I’m not one to repeat mistakes.”
Chapter 26
KEEPING SECRETS
Guilt washed over Liz as fast as a cyclone cutting through a town.
She let Hayden guide her down the steps and to the street, where he hailed a cab. The whole walk she was in a daze. Part of her knew that she had enjoyed the kiss. She had even on some level wanted Hayden to kiss her. And that thought only made her feel worse. She had appreciated her time with Hayden—the openness, his interest in her career, all of the introductions. It was the complete opposite of Brady, and it gave her a headache, because what she really wanted was Brady to give her all of the things that Hayden had given her this weekend. But just because Brady wasn’t giving her those things didn’t mean that she should have taken them from Hayden.
The cab ride to Hayden’s place was quiet but comfortable. When they made it back, up the flight of stairs, and inside the apartment, Liz quickly retreated to the bedroom to change. She just needed a minute to breathe before saying good night. She didn’t know if she trusted herself to be alone with him much longer. She placed her hands down softly on the bed, closed her eyes, and tried to get the image of Hayden’s lips out of her mind.