I pulled away and panted…. “Lark. I need to make the ache go away. Please.”
He quickly pushed me onto the bed and at first I moved away from the blood but once I felt him get on the bed with me I no longer cared. All I cared about was feeling him inside me.
I went to move onto my back and he stopped me. “Get on your hands and knees, Azurdee.” I did as he said, my heart pounding in my chest faster and harder than it ever had in my life.
“You have to tell me if I’m hurting you. Promise me.”
I looked over my shoulder and nodded my head.
“Say it.”
My breathing was erratic and all I wanted was to feel him moving in and out of me. Oh God. What have I turned into?
“I promise. Lark…please, I need you inside of me.” He grabbed onto my hip as he pushed his fingers inside and primed my body to receive him.
My mind thought back to his words. I’m going to fuck you hard and fast.
I was scared and excited at the same time. Then his other hand grabbed my hip and I took a deep breath. “Promise me, Azurdee.”
“Yes! Yes! I promise.” I couldn’t believe how needy my voice sounded. He was like a drug I just couldn’t get enough of.
I felt him at my entrance and my whole body quivered. He slowly pushed inside of me as I sucked in a breath of air. This way was going to feel different. He pulled out slowly and then slammed back into me. “Ah!” I cried out as I felt him go deeper inside of me than before.
“Fuck,” Lark whispered. “Am I hurting you?”
I quickly shook my head and felt him grip my hips harder. “No. I’m fine, it was just so much deeper and…”
I hadn’t even finished talking when he pulled out and slammed back into me. Oh God. The feeling was both pleasure and pain. I needed more. I pushed my ass back into him and he leaned over my back and began kissing it. “I love the way your body reacts to mine. I love that you want this as much as I do.”
I looked over my shoulder at him and whispered, “Yes. Oh God, yes.”
And with that Lark began taking me to somewhere I’d never imagined. I was beyond aroused and with each hard stroke he began building my orgasm up more and more. When he reached his hand down and began touching my clit, that was all it took. I began calling out his name. I couldn’t believe how hard this orgasm was hitting me. I could feel myself pulsating around his dick.
“Jesus, Azurdee. I’m going to come.” Lark began calling out my name as he gave me every ounce of himself. My legs and arms were shaking and it was taking everything I had to hold myself up.
When he finally pulled out of me, I collapsed onto the bed. I’m not going to be able to walk.
Lark lay down next to me and pulled me to him. “Every time you move for the next few days you’re going to feel me with you still.”
I let out a small whimper as he turned my body to face him and captured my lips with his. I could very easily have him again with no complaints. I wanted to feel sore. I wanted to remember this night forever.
He slowly pulled his lips from mine and I wanted to cry out no. I instantly missed the connection. “Are you sore, mi amor?” Lark asked as he pushed a strand of hair away from my face. My heart melted every time he called me that. I slowly shook my head.
“Tell me what you’re thinking,” he whispered.
I swallowed hard and said, “How amazing you make me feel. How that was beyond my wildest dreams. And how long we have to wait to do it again.”
He smiled and there went my stomach, flipping and turning like I was a teenager in love.
His smile slowly faded a bit and he looked into my eyes. “Azurdee, you’re everything I’ve ever wanted, and everything I’ve ever feared.”
Everything I’ve ever wanted. Everything I’ve ever feared.
My heart dropped slightly as I thought about the night Scott had told me about Nikki, Lark’s girlfriend who passed away in college. I closed my eyes and fought to hold back my tears. Why would I be something he feared? Was he thinking of her? Did he compare me to her? A million thoughts started running through my head.
I felt his hot breath against my lips. I snapped my eyes open and looked into his eyes as he whispered, “I never want to hurt you, ever. Please know that.”
It was almost like he was expecting to hurt me, and that caused an uneasy feeling in my stomach. I tried to smile as I said, “I never want to hurt you either, Lark.”
Something in his eyes changed and he pulled away. He got off the bed and said, “I’m going to take a shower. I’ll run another hot bath for you to soak in.”
I sat up and wanted to argue with him and say I wanted to shower with him, but something had changed. He seemed distant all of a sudden. All I could do was whisper, “Okay.”
I watched as he walked into the bathroom. I was all of a sudden overcome with a sense of being completely alone. I had just given my virginity away to the one man I probably should have guarded it from the most.
The one who had the power to destroy my heart and soul.
After I started a bath for Azurdee, I tried to calm my beating heart. What in the hell just happened to me? Making love to Azurdee had changed everything. I was feeling things I hadn’t felt in years. Things I’d never felt before, even with Nikki.
I stood there staring down at the water in the tub. She was like a drug. I needed to feel her body up against mine. I needed to taste her lips against mine. I needed to make her understand how I felt about her. That scared the shit out of me. When I walked away from her just now I felt empty.
I slowly turned around and saw her standing there with a shirt on. Holy fuck. She’s the most beautiful woman I’ve ever seen. I wanted to take her again but I knew after what I just did she had to be sore.
“Um…it might be a little hot, but soak in it for awhile. It will help with the soreness.”
The look on her face was pure disappointment. She walked over to the tub and slipped the shirt off her shoulders and climbed in.
“Oh wow. That is hot!” she said with a nervous chuckle. I tried to smile, but it felt like the room was closing in on me. She slowly sank down and leaned her head back against the tub. “That feels amazing.”
She opened her eyes and looked up at me. “You sure you want to take a shower?” She winked and my heart dropped.
I just stood there. Frozen. I needed to get away.
“Yes. I’m going to head to my bathroom while you soak.” I quickly turned away and made my way out of the bathroom and to my room. I was staying in the bedroom that had a private bath.