She relaxed into him the way she had earlier; once making up her mind to give herself to him, she did it wholeheartedly. She reached back with her hands to grip the bars of the headboard, to keep from accidentally forgetting, in the heat of the moment, not to grab and hold on to him.
Her bare body lay out before him like a feast, and Jack took his time, tasting every inch of her, suckling her br**sts, teasing and biting, deliberately heightening her pleasure. He waited for every gasp, every arc of her body, the movement of restless h*ps to tell him exactly what she liked-what drove her mad-what pushed her over the edge.
She gripped the bars tighter as he made his way down her body. He could feel the building tension in her spiraling out of control. His fingers caressed the slick heat between her legs, dipped deep to push her higher and higher until she cried out. He wanted more. He wanted to hear his name on her lips, hear her cry out with pleasure. He bent his head and feathered kisses along her inner thigh, feeling her body jerk in response. His tongue teased and caressed, drawing gasps of pleasure, plunged deep to dance, to stroke, to draw the honey out of her. Her womb contracted, stomach clenching, and her h*ps rose off the bed as she gave a little sob-somewhere between utter ecstasy and fear of losing her mind.
Jack took a firmer grip on her hips, drawing her even tighter into him, needing to hear her cries, to know that he was the man giving her such pleasure. His hands began a slow exploration of her body, deliberately seductive while his teeth and tongue sent her nearly spiraling out of control. Hot licks and teasing bites, he drove her higher and higher. Her h*ps thrashed and bucked under his assault, the searing heat setting off a series of small explosions. Instead of relieving the terrible ache, it only built it into a stronger tidal wave of pulsing heat.
Briony pulsed with fierce need, arousal so strong she thought she might not survive. Her mind was a haze of need, so that she began to plead with him, afraid of the nearly savage intensity of pleasure. Jack knelt between her legs and drew her to him, his eyes glittering with raw possession-with stark craving. He thrust hard, burying himself deep, driving through her tight folds, taking her over the edge. She exploded-imploded-strong currents of electricity dazzling her while her body simply fragmented and wave after wave of pleasure pulsed through her.
And then Jack began to move. Every movement of his h*ps sent a shiver of pain through his body, but it mixed with the building heat, the building pleasure. She surrounded him with hot friction, her slick folds tight, her muscles strong, gripping him as he surged deeper and deeper, and all the while she stared up at him with dark chocolate eyes, dazed with heat and passion.
He shifted her slightly to get the angle that would press him hot and hard over her most sensitive bud, and he picked a faster, rougher rhythm that had her crying out his name. Jack. Not aloud. Whispered in his mind. Aching. Stunned pleasure consuming her mind. He wanted to pound into her with a frenzied need, but the innocence in her eyes, the emotion on her face, forced him to keep some semblance of control. He wanted her to remember this moment forever, because it would be forever etched in his mind. He watched her face, saw the intensity increase, felt her body grip his. She gave a soft cry, the sound mingling with his harsh yell, and he emptied himself into her, pouring everything he was into her, body and soul.
“Again,” he growled.
Jack sat on the edge of the bed staring down at her face. She looked so young-not a line on her face. Her eyes, when she looked at him, held so much innocence. She saw him as the man he could have been-not the man he was. He killed without remorse. Demons sat on his shoulder every minute of the day and drove him hard. He wanted her-but if he kept her, there was every possibility of becoming the man his father had been. His father had looked at his sons with cold, empty eyes, eyes filled with hatred for being near their mother. It was time stolen from him and he wouldn’t put up with it-not from them-not from anyone. No one could touch her, speak to her-she was his possession.
Jack and Ken had made a pact together, a sacred oath, that neither would ever risk destroying a woman the way their father had their mother. His father had loathed them, twin boys who took up their mother’s time, received her smiles-and her love. There were beatings that became more and more vicious as his obsession grew.
God help him, Jack felt that way about Briony-that terrible need to keep her to himself, to hold on too tight. He couldn’t fool himself into thinking he wasn’t already a little obsessed. He was capable of killing-had done so before he was in his teens-and now, faced with looking at the monster he’d become-he had to give her up. She deserved a normal man-one capable of loving without possession and jealousy and fear. It was the only gift he could give her. He knew, when he walked away, that no other woman would ever do, but he couldn’t take her and watch her innocence and light slowly fade, to be replaced by fear the way it had been in his mother.
Briony stirred, murmured his name in her sleep, and reached for him. His heart clenched hard. He leaned close to her. “Once I’m gone, Briony, don’t come near me again,” he whispered. “Not ever, because I’ll never be able to give you up twice.”
Her eyes opened and she smiled at him. “I was dreaming about you.”
His stomach churned and he bent to kiss her. He shouldn’t. He knew better, but it was damned hard to let go. “I’ve got to get out of here. My ride’s waiting.”
She sat up, pushing at the silky hair, a small frown on her face. “Is it safe? Are you certain it’s safe, Jack?”
“It’s safe enough.” He stood up and slung the rifle around his neck. “Thanks for everything.”
Briony swallowed hard, resisting the need to cling to him. Of course he had to go, but he hadn’t said one word about seeing her again. Not one. She caught his hand. “Jack.” She said his name softly. “How are we going to find one another?”
He pulled his hand away, rubbed his palm down his thigh as if the gesture simply wiped her away. “We aren’t. You didn’t think this was going to go anywhere, did you? I’m not the kind of man who settles down with a woman and kids in a house with a white picket fence. You knew that going into it. You’d be a liability to me.”
Briony never took her eyes from his face. His features were set and hard-carved of stone-eyes as cold as ice. Jack betrayed absolutely no emotion. She could have been looking at a total stranger. Her heart crumbled into tiny pieces. She heard her own wail, a long, drawn-out cry of anguish, but it was only in her own mind-and she had enough pride to keep her shields up stronger than ever so he couldn’t hear the weeping in her head. He couldn’t know just how much she’d invested in him-how much of a fool she’d really been.