All she could do was hope that he was wrong, and that he would be able to keep control of himself. It was selfish of her to put him through such torture; it was so much to ask of him. Yet, it was also a lot to ask of her. She refused to let the knowledge that their relationship was doomed seep into her brain. If she did, she would completely break down, and she couldn’t do that. Not in front of him. Not now.
For now she was still able to hold him, be near him; love him. Right now she had to cherish every moment they had together, for they were far more limited than she had realized.
Reaching out, she gently stroked the face that she loved so much. Beneath her hand she could feel the fine bristles of his stubble. “I love you Devon.”
Light and hope bloomed in his eyes; they glowed with warmth and love. Though she knew he did not hope for her to change her mind, the hope nearly unraveled her. Pulling her gently forward he dropped a soft, lingering kiss on her forehead. “I love you too. I’ll love you forever.”
Tears slid down Cassie’s face as she leaned into him, savoring in his strength, his warmth, and the eternal love enshrouding her.
CHAPTER 8
Cassie studied the crowd crammed into the restaurant of B’s and S’s. A few diehards remained settled around the picnic tables outside, but for the most part the crisp mid October air had chased everyone else inside. The heat from all the bodies, and the noise was almost more than she could tolerate, but unfortunately they had to be here. Vampires were drawn to the crowds, drawn to the fresh blood of the youth within the walls.
The loud ringing of the pinball machine behind her caused her to wince involuntarily. A headache had been bothering her all day, tensing her shoulders and back. It was the kind of headache that no amount of aspirin could cure, and noises and stress were best avoided. She couldn’t avoid either of them right now.
Devon leaned closer to her, his hand gently massaging the back of her neck. She leaned forward, closing her eyes as he attempted to ease the tightness lingering there. There was far too much on her mind right now. A loud shout rang out as the pinball machine went crazy. Sliding lower in her seat, she fervently wished that she was anywhere but here.
“Do you want me to take you home?” Chris inquired.
Opening her eyes Cassie focused on his bleary figure. She would love nothing more than to go home, but she couldn’t leave the three of them on their own tonight. If anything happened… She refused to finish the thought as she shook her head slightly. “No, that’s ok. I’ll be fine.”
He frowned at her, but didn’t push further. Devon pulled her closer to him, his arm wrapping gently around her head as he rested it against his chest. Some of the pain eased from her as his touch soothed the pounding in her temples. Closing her eyes, she wrapped her arms around his waist, clinging tight to him as he stroked her hair lightly. He blocked out some of the noise, making it easier to breathe as she opened her eyes once more.
Her gaze drifted across the students that gave their table a wide berth. Not long ago their table would have been flocked with people vying for their attention. Now there was no one, and she found that she didn’t miss them. Glancing around the too bright, too loud restaurant, Cassie ignored the sideways looks she received. Sighing heavily, she took a sip of water, hoping the cool liquid would help ease the pain in her body. It didn’t.
Fresh air would though, she was certain of that. “I’m going to step outside for a minute.”
“I’ll come with you,” Devon said instantly.
She shot him a look, shaking her head slightly, afraid to move it much more. “No, I’ll be fine, I’m not going anywhere.”
“Cassie…”
“Devon, I just need some fresh air.”
His eyes were dark and turbulent as he studied her carefully. His glance toward Chris and Melissa set Cassie’s hackles on edge. She was just getting some fresh air for crying out loud, she was not a two year old, and she did not need a babysitter. “I don’t need their permission either,” she said sharply.
His gaze came guiltily back to hers, his shoulders slumped slightly. “Alright, but don’t go anywhere.”
She frowned fiercely at him, but did not argue further. Besides, she was not fooled into thinking that at least one of them wouldn’t be keeping an eye on her, making sure she didn’t get herself killed. Devon slid out of the booth, letting her escape from her cramped corner and the endlessly annoying ring of the pinball machine. “I’ll be back,” she muttered.
He squeezed her arm gently as she made her way past. In the old days she would have had to push her way through the crowd, stopping every few feet to talk with someone. There had been times that it had taken her a half an hour just to make it to the door. Not any longer. Now the crowd parted for her as if she were a highly contagious leper they wanted no part of.
Cassie kept her face impassive, and her chin high. It was only high school, she continuously told herself. She only had a little over seven months left, and she still had her best friends, and Devon. Though that thought helped to ease some of the hurt, it did not make it go away. She would never get used to being hated. She would never get used to people that she had considered friends turning against her so quickly, and so easily. It was like a knife to the heart, and especially to the back.
Shoving through the double glass doors, Cassie greedily inhaled gulps of the refreshing, crisp air. The doors closed behind her, blocking most of the ringing and voices, leaving her in the near blissful silence of the outdoor eating area. The two tables of people still outside glanced up at her, surprise and amusement crossed their features before they turned back to each other.
Cassie turned to ignore them, but her attention was snagged by one of the girls with blood red hair, tinted at the ends with neon green. Eyes narrowing, she tried to place the girl, knowing that she had seen her before. Her mind tripped along, going over features and memories. Then, it locked into place. She had been one of Dani’s smoking friends the day Cassie had first met Dani in the bathroom, and she had been one of the girl’s that Dani had joined in the hallway.
But where was Dani?
Cassie scanned the crowd again, but she did not see the tiny girl amongst them. Turning back to the restaurant, she searched the packed, bright interior. If Dani was more than ten feet in there, Cassie was not going to see her. Maybe she had decided not to come out tonight? Or perhaps she was in the restaurant. Though she tried to assure herself that both of these things were possible, Cassie could not shake the feeling that neither explanation was right.