The downstairs bathroom was opulent.
As far as I knew, Bill never used the bathroom; at least for the primary human function. I stared around me in amazement.
The space for this grand bathroom had been achieved by including what had formerly been the pantry and about half the old kitchen.
"I like to shower," he said, pointing to a clear shower stall in one corner. It was big enough for two grownups and maybe a dwarf or two. "And I like to lie in warm water." He indicated the centerpiece of the room, a huge sort of tub surrounded by an indoor deck of cedar, with steps on two sides. There were potted plants arranged all around it. The room was as close to being in the middle of a very luxurious jungle as you could get in northern Louisiana.
"What is that?" I asked, awed.
"It's a portable spa," Bill said proudly. "It has jets you can adjust individually so each person can get the right force of water. It's a hot tub," he simplified.
"It has seats," I said, looking in. The interior was decorated around the top with green and blue tiles. There were fancy controls on the outside.
Bill turned them, and water began to surge.
"Maybe we can bathe together?" Bill suggested.
I felt my cheeks flame, and my heart began to pound a little faster.
"Maybe now?" Bill's fingers tugging at my shirt where it was tucked into my black shorts.
"Oh, well... maybe." I couldn't seem to look at him straight when I thought of how this - okay, man - had seen more of me than I'd ever let anyone see, including my doctor.
"Have you missed me?" he asked, his hands unbuttoning my shorts and peeling them down.
"Yes," I said promptly because I knew that to be true.
He laughed, even as he knelt to untie my Nikes. "What did you miss most, Sookie?"
"I missed your silence," I said without thinking at all.
He looked up. His fingers paused in the act of pulling the end of the bow to loosen it.
"My silence," he said.
"Not being able to hear your thoughts. You just can't imagine, Bill, how wonderful that is."
"I was thinking you'd say something else."
"Well, I missed that, too."
"Tell me about it," he invited, pulling my socks off and running his fingers up my thigh, tugging off the panties and shorts.
"Bill! I'm embarrassed," I protested.
"Sookie, don't be embarrassed with me. Least of anyone, with me." He was standing now, divesting me of my shirt and reaching behind me to unsnap my bra, running his hands over the marks the straps had made on my skin, turning his attention to my br**sts. He toed off his sandals at some point.
"I'll try," I said, looking at my own toes.
"Undress me."
Now that I could do. I unbuttoned his shirt briskly and eased it out of his pants and off his shoulders. I unbuckled his belt and began to work on the waist button of his slacks. It was stiff, and I had quite a job.
I thought I was going to cry if the button didn't cooperate more. I felt clumsy and inept.
He took my hands and led them up to his chest. "Slow, Sookie, slow," he said, and his voice had gone soft and shivery. I could feel myself relaxing almost inch by inch, and I began to stroke his chest as he'd stroked mine, twining the curly hair around my fingers and gently pinching his flat ni**les. His hand went behind my head and pressed gently. I hadn't known men liked that, but Bill sure did, so I paid equal attention to the other one. While I was doing that, my hands resumed work on the damn button, and this time it came undone with ease. I began pushing down his pants, sliding my fingers inside his Jockeys.
He helped me down into the spa, the water frothing around our legs.
"Shall I bathe you first?" he asked.
"No," I said breathlessly. "Give me the soap."
Chapter 7
T HE NEXT NIGHT Bill and I had an unsettling conversation. We were in his bed, his huge bed with the carved headboard and a brand-new Restonic mattress. His sheets were flowered like his wallpaper, and I remember wondering if he liked flowers printed on his possessions because he couldn't see the real thing, at least as they were meant to be seen ... in the daylight.
Bill was lying on his side, looking down at me. We'd been to the movies; Bill was crazy about movies with aliens, maybe having some kindred feeling for space creatures. It had been a real shoot-em-up, with almost all the aliens being ugly, creepy, bent on killing. He'd fumed about that while he'd taken me out to eat, and then back to his place. I'd been glad when he'd suggested testing the new bed.
I was the first to lie on it with him.
He was looking at me, as he liked to do, I was learning. Maybe he was listening to my heart pounding, since he could hear things I couldn't, or maybe he was watching my pulse throb, because he could see things I couldn't, too. Our conversation had strayed from the movie we'd seen to the nearing parish elections (Bill was going to try to register to vote, absentee ballot), and then to our childhoods. I was realizing that Bill was trying desperately to remember what it had been like to be a regular person.
"Did you ever play 'show me yours' with your brother?" he asked. "They now say that's normal, but I will never forget my mother beating the tarnation out of my brother Robert after she found him in the bushes with Sarah."
"No," I said, trying to sound casual, but my face tightened, and I could feel the clenching of fear in my stomach.
"You're not telling the truth."
"Yes, I am." I kept my eyes fixed on his chin, hoping to think of some way to change the topic. But Bill was nothing if not persistent.
"Not your brother, then. Who?"
"I don't want to talk about this." My hands contracted into fists, and I could feel myself begin to shut down.
But Bill hated being evaded. He was used to people telling him whatever he wanted to know because he was used to using his glamor to get his way.
"Tell me, Sookie." His voice was coaxing, his eyes big pools of curiosity. He ran his thumbnail down my stomach, and I shivered.
"I had a ... funny uncle," I said, feeling the familiar tight smile stretch my lips.
He raised his dark arched brows. He hadn't heard the phrase.
I said as distantly as I could manage, "That's an adult male relative who molests his ... the children in the family."
His eyes began to burn. He swallowed; I could see his Adam's apple move. I grinned at him. My hands were pulling my hair back from my face. I couldn't stop it.
"And someone did this to you? How old were you?"