Love Story(64)
Author: Jennifer Echols

But more likely, he would die before me, and I would receive the news just when I was about to get married or give birth or embark on my national tour for my best-selling novel. I had looked forward to my dad’s return as the climax of my story. Now I knew he would ruin my happiest day for me, an unexpected plot twist.

Boo-boo chomped through the reins as I pulled her up short out of a canter. We had reached a far pasture, many rolling hills away from the house and the barn. Standing on a limestone boulder under the golden canopy of an oak was the horse that had killed my mother.

She’d been two at the time and there had been talk of trying her in the Derby the following spring. After the accident, my grandmother never raced her, though she potentially lost millions of dollars with that inaction. She just put the filly out to pasture. If the decision had been mine, I would have shot her myself. But as Tommy had explained, horses bore no malice. They were skittish herd animals escaping danger.

They were not, however, mountain goats. Boo-boo danced impatiently as I gazed toward the black horse on the gray rock under the yellow tree. How had she gotten up there? The back of the boulder sloped more gently, I remembered. That was the explanation. But my heart did not slow down.

In Hunter’s most recent story, the girl he looked down on rode a black filly. I wondered again what his story had meant.

I WOKE TO THE SOUND OF dishes clanking in the kitchen and the scent of bacon. Untangling myself from Hunter’s bedclothes and sliding my history book off my face, I squinted at the dark window. Dawn had not broken. In the dimmest light glowing from under the bedroom door, I could just make out the planets stuck to the sun above Hunter’s dresser.

“Tommy!” I exclaimed at the overflowing kitchen table. “You didn’t have to cook all this. I hardly eat anything in the morning. I’ll just have some coffee.”

“Coffee,” he repeated in exactly the Long Island accent Hunter used when he said coffee. Turning with a skillet of eggs, Tommy jabbed the spatula toward an empty chair at the table. “Eat. Hunter told me you’re living on peanut-butter crackers. Eat or you’re walking to Churchill Downs.” He flopped eggs onto my plate. “Or are you hiding here all day?” He sat down at his own place and handed me a platter of biscuits.

Hiding sounded like an excellent idea, but it wasn’t what I’d had in mind. “I need money,” I said.

He stopped eating and eyed me from across the table. The look he was giving me

I had never seen this look from him before. I wondered if, for the first time, I was seeing that father from Hunter’s story. I had thought Tommy was a happy-go-lucky old soul who would give me the shirt off his back, but perhaps I’d gotten that impression only because I’d never asked him for anything.

Quickly I clarified, “I want to work for you today. Could you use an extra stable hand? Pay me what you used to pay Hunter.”

He raised his eyebrows, chewed and swallowed before he responded. “It’s your grandmother’s money, you know.”

“At least I will have earned it.”

In his grunt I heard acquiescence but also impatience at humoring the poor little rich girl. I might have told him never mind, he didn’t have to satisfy my whim. But I did want to spend the day at Churchill Downs. And I did not want to spend it in the owner’s box with Hunter and my grandmother.

In the darkness I helped Tommy load a brown stallion and a dun filly into the trailer. We drove back up the empty interstate and through the neighborhood of nineteenth-century houses in the style of my grandmother’s. At the orange stain of sunrise across the gray sky, we pulled slowly through the gate at Churchill Downs, all white-painted wood with twin spires towering over the grandstands.

Then we started work. I fed horses, watered horses, groomed horses. I didn’t exercise them because this close to their races, the trainer wanted specific experienced people riding them, sensing problems. I did, however, lead horses to and fro, and when a stallion reared up and kicked in protest at going back into the Blackwell Farms trailer, I was the one who leaped forward to grab the reins and talk him down. I acted automatically. It was only fifteen minutes later, when the truck leading the trailer pulled away and Tommy squeezed my shoulder, that my heart pounded at the danger I’d been in. An hour after that I realized I hadn’t been wearing a helmet.

Groups of agents and buyers and my grandmother’s assistants wandered into our farm’s section of the stables and out again, talking business over bourbon in clear plastic cups, lighting cigars after they’d walked away from the hay. I used to be part of these groups. I would hang at the periphery with other tipsy teenage heirs to horse farms, often Whitfield Farrell. I expected to see my grandmother in one of these groups. Repeatedly I peeked under a horse’s belly to look for her without looking like I was looking. I never saw her. Around noon I did, however, see Hunter.

He grinned with a middle-aged agent and my grandmother’s elderly lawyer, both powerful men, handy to know if you were pretending to take over a venerable business that had been in someone else’s family for five generations. They stood in the warm sunlight that had finally burned through the clouds. He took a sip of bourbon and watched me over the rim of his cup.

And then he was laughing at something the lawyer had said. He’d joined the boys’ club with a great personality, good looks, and no effort at all. I wasn’t sure anymore that he’d been watching me over his cup. He was in the sunlight, after all, and I was in the darkness. He couldn’t see me.

Staying on my feet and taking care of horses all day would have hurt enough, but my bruised hip started to throb, and my shoulders ached from holding the spooked horse steady. I noticed other stable hands sipping sodas and smoking cigarettes beside the vast parking lot, but I never asked for a break, and Tommy never suggested I take one. I suspected he was giving the princess exactly what he thought she wanted.

Just before the last race of the day, after we’d sent our best horse to the paddock to be shown off, Tommy jerked his head toward the track, telling me to follow him. In the sunshine I shed my Blackwell Farms jacket and tied it around my waist. We found a space at the white fence where we could see the track—nowhere near the finish line, which was in front of the grandstands, but with a great view of the fourth turn. He bought us both a hot dog at a cart. I bit into mine immediately, giving him my thanks with my mouth full. I hadn’t eaten since he’d fed me that morning.

As I ate, I watched him down huge bites. The whole hot dog took him four. Hunter did not eat like this. Hunter could eat a hot dog with a knife and fork and make you think everybody ate it like that on Long Island.

“What is it?” Tommy asked me. A dab of mustard clung to the corner of his mouth.