I lived, and he died.
Duncan had always felt he needed to live for the both of them, for all his friends whose lives had been cut short.
After opening the passenger door for Jada, Duncan slipped behind the wheel. He touched the knob of the gearshift—only to have soft fingers land lightly on the back of his hand. He glanced over to see Jada’s eyes shining at him, full of unspoken possibilities.
He remembered her story in the mountains, of entangled fates, of the prospect that death is just the collapsing of a life’s potential in this one time stream, and that another door could open, allowing consciousness to flow forward in a new direction.
If so, maybe I don’t have to live all those lives . . .
He leaned over and kissed her, recognizing in the heat of that moment that by attempting to live so many lives, he was failing to live his own.
“How fast can this car go?” she mumbled as their lips parted. A mischievous eyebrow lifted.
He matched it with a smile, curved just as devilishly.
He shifted into gear, punched the accelerator, and rocketed away. The car roared down the bright streets, no longer chased by the ghosts of the past but drawn forward by the promise of the future.
For in this world, one life was enough for any man.
4:44 P.M.
“Thanks for the lift,” Gray said, shouldering his overnight bag as he climbed out of the SUV.
Kowalski lifted an arm in acknowledgment. Puffing on a cigar, he leaned over. “She was a great gal,” he said, unusually serious and sincere. “She won’t be forgotten. Or her uncle.”
“Thanks,” Gray said and pushed the door closed.
Kowalski tapped his horn good-bye and jammed back into traffic, coming close to sideswiping a bus.
Gray crossed to his apartment complex and headed across its grounds, frosted with new snow, making everything look pristine, untouched, hiding the messiness of life beneath that white blanket.
He had flown back an hour ago from the funeral services in Italy, where Vigor’s body had been given full honors at a ceremony in St. Peter’s. Likewise, Rachel’s services were attended by the uniformed and marshaled forces of the Carabinieri. Her casket had been covered in the flag of Italy. Blasts of rifles had saluted at her graveside.
Still, Gray found no joy, no peace.
They were his friends—and he would miss them dearly.
He climbed the steps up to his empty apartment. Seichan was still in Hong Kong, slowly building some kind of relationship with her mother. They had found Ju-long’s pregnant wife imprisoned on an island off Hong Kong, safe and unharmed. They had freed her, and according to Seichan, the woman had returned to Portugal.
On Macau, Guan-yin had filled with brutal efficiency the power vacuum left behind by Ju-long’s passing. She was well on her way to becoming the new Boss of Macau. Using that position, she and Seichan were already taking steps to better the lives of women on the peninsula and across Southeast Asia, starting with the prostitution rings, holding them to stricter, more humane standards.
He suspected these early efforts were a small means of repairing the fence between mother and daughter. By lifting the burdens of other women who shared their same hard plight, they were helping themselves, as if repairing the present could dull the pain of their brutal pasts, to allow room for them to find each other again.
But it wasn’t the only way.
Seichan had taken it upon herself to help the lost children of Mongolia, those homeless boys and girls who had fallen through the steamy cracks of a city struggling into the new world. He knew by rescuing them, she was rescuing that child of the past who had no one.
While in Mongolia, she had also checked on Khaidu. The young Mongolian girl was out of the hospital, her belly healing from the arrow wound. Seichan found her at her family’s yurt, training with a young falcon—a high-spirited bird with gold feathers and black eyes.
Khaidu had named the bird Sanjar.
We each mourn and honor in our own way, he thought.
Gray reached his apartment door and found it unlocked.
Tensing, he slowly turned the knob and edged the door open. The place was dark. Nothing seemed amiss. He stepped cautiously inside.
Did I forget to lock the door before I left?
As he rounded past the kitchen, he caught a whiff of jasmine in the air. He saw a flickering light from under his closed bedroom door. He crossed and pushed it open.
Seichan had set out candles. She must have returned early from Hong Kong, perhaps sensing he could use company.
She lay stretched on his bed, on her side, up on an elbow, her long naked legs dark against the white sheets. The silhouetted curves of her sleek body formed a sigil of invitation. But there was no accompanying sly smile, no tease to her manner, only a subtle reminder that they both lived and should never take that for granted.
Seichan had told him what she had overheard at the inn back at Khuzhir, about Vigor’s terminal cancer, of the final words an uncle and niece were able to share. In this moment, he remembered Vigor’s most important lesson about life.
. . . do not waste that gift, do not set it on a shelf for some future use; grab it with both hands . . .
Gray stalked forward, shedding clothes with every step, ripping what resisted, until he stood equally naked before her.
In that moment, with every fiber of his being, he knew the fundamental truth about life.
Live it now . . . who knows what will come tomorrow?
TAILS
For now we see through a glass, darkly.
—CORINTHIANS 13:12
November 26, 10:17 A.M. CET
Rome, Italy
Rachel waited outside the exam room for her uncle to finish meeting with his physician. Vigor had only come to the hospital upon her firm insistence, especially as she had no sound basis for demanding this battery of tests.
The door finally cracked open. She heard her uncle laugh, shake the doctor’s hand, and come out.
“Well, I hope that satisfies you,” Vigor said to her. “Clean bill of health.”
“And the full-body MRI results?”
“Besides some arthritis in my hips and lower back, nothing.” Vigor scooped an arm around her waist and headed toward the exit. “For a man in such good health in his sixties, the doctor said I should expect to live to a hundred.”
Rachel could tell he was joking, but she also noted a flicker at the edge of his eyes, like he was trying to remember something.
“What?” she asked.
“I know you insisted on this cancer screening—”
She sighed loudly enough to cut him off. “Sorry. Ever since coming back from Olkhon Island, I just had this bad feeling, like you were sick or something.” She shook her head. “I’m just being silly.”