“Selena, I’m not … worthy of this.”
“I want you. And that makes you worthy.”
I told you not to be stupid, you moron.
Yup, that was defo Ben Stern.
Trez closed his lids and swayed, thinking it seemed a goddamn cruel twist of fate to be offered this tonight.
“Please,” she said.
Aw, f**k. Like he was going to say no to her?
When he opened his eyes again, he didn’t know how he was going to get them both through the sex in one piece. It was the worst possible moment to open this can of worms, but he wasn’t going to turn away from her: He was raw in places he didn’t like to acknowledge even to himself, and this was going to be a Band-Aid, something that was going to help him.
Even though only temporarily.
And at least he could do his damnedest to make it good for her.
Moving up on Selena, he braced his arms on either side of her undulating body and slowly, inexorably brought his mouth down until it was barely a millimeter above hers.
“No going back,” he growled.
She linked her arms behind his neck. “No regrets.”
Fair enough.
To seal the deal, he kissed her, brushing his mouth against hers, plying at her until she opened herself on her own. His tongue had already penetrated into her sex—but only by a degree. Hell, he’d shocked himself with that licking. Now? There was no holding back. He extended himself into her fully, fusing his mouth to hers, tilting his head to the side as he drew against her lips.
It was the strangest dichotomy. He was so ready to take her, prepared to split her legs wide and drive into that hot, wet place between her thighs—and yeah, he wanted to mark her internally with his come, leave his scent all over her inside and out, make it so no male dared to touch her, look at her.
Yet he had all the time in the world for this kissing.
Then again, she was sweet as ice wine, smooth as double-batch bourbon, heady as port. And he was drunk before he even lifted his head for a breath.
But he wasn’t going to stay forever. There was another place he wanted to get back to.
As he kissed his way down to her neck, he regretted the raw marks he’d left at her vein, and brushed them with his lips, once, twice.
“I’m sorry,” he said, roughly.
“Whatever for?”
He had to reclose his eyes as that husky voice of hers penetrated his haze—and promptly sexed him up even more. What had she asked … oh, yeah.
“I shouldn’t have been so rough.”
“Well, I didn’t mind being held down. At all.”
Annnnnnnnnnd didn’t that get him seeing double.
“Are you going to return to where you were?” she asked.
Fuck yeah. “Yes … right now. If you want—”
The undulation of her body and that moan was the best “I do” he’d ever heard.
Trying to keep a lid on his inner beast, he kissed his way over to her collarbone and then had to pull back and just look at her. Her br**sts were the most beautiful thing he’d ever seen: She was perfectly built, her ni**les tight on top of the pale swells, her skin smooth, her breathing a taunt to his self-control.
He was as careful as he had been with her mouth.
Extending his tongue, he licked a circle around her nipple—and going by the way her hands speared into his hair, she approved.
“Oh…” she groaned.
He smiled before he sucked her in. Nursing at her, he eased onto his side and swept a hand down to her waist, her hip, her thigh … her inner thigh.
She gave way for him like water, her body loose and trusting as he suckled and inched his touch higher, and higher. He was almost at her core, and planning exactly where to stroke her when—
An image of a human invaded the space between his ears.
At first, he couldn’t figure out what the f**k his brain had coughed up … but then he recognized the random woman as one he’d nailed in the back of a car over a year ago. And the clarity was a killer. He saw everything in HD, the lipstick smeared on her front teeth, the mascara smudges under her eyes, her botched boob job where one of her ni**les was wall-eyed.
But none of that was the worst part.
No, the worst was the way her head moved up and back, up and back—because he was inside of her. His c**k was in her sex, going in and out, the rhythm growing faster so that he could come and be done with the session.
His erection, the one that he was getting ready to slip into Selena, had been in a cesspool. Had been in … hundreds of dirty human women who hadn’t brought up safe sex or STD tests or whether or not they’d already contracted AIDS from letting sluts like him into their panties.
The fact that he couldn’t contract their diseases did not matter in the slightest.
Filthy was filthy.
Jerking back, he hissed and closed his eyes, trying to order an evac for all of that shit.
“Trez?”
“Sorry, I…” Shaking his head, he refocused on her br**sts—and felt nauseous from self-hatred. “I’m just—”
Another human woman tackled his brain, this one that real estate agent he’d done at the warehouse he’d just bought: He pictured her hands spread against the wall as he f**ked her from behind, her wedding ring flashing.
“I’m sorry,” he grunted. And then it was more with the head shaking—like the memories were objects he could knock off his table of consciousness. “I’m…”
In rapid succession, he saw the brunette he’d let suck him off in his office. The redhead he’d done with that blond in the club bathroom. The threesome with those college girls, the Goth at the cemetery, the waitress at Sal’s, the pharmacist when he’d gone to get Motrin one afternoon, the bartender at that place, the woman he’d seen at the car dealership …
Faster and faster, until the images were like bullets one after another after another, firing into his brain.
As he peeled off of Selena, it seemed both bizarre and totally appropriate that the only thing he could think of was that the Shadows were right.
Sex with humans had contaminated him.
And he was paying the price for the poison, right here and now.
Sitting at the kitchen table, Assail could only stare at his cousins. The pair of contract killers, drug dealers, and enforcers had not only washed up before the meal, they were now easing back in their seats and looking like they wanted to loosen their pants.
As Marisol’s grandmother got to her feet again, Assail shook his head. “Madam, you must enjoy this food on which you worked so diligently.”