Looked like a hurricane had come up the Hudson.
Maybe it had been three times?
The demon knelt down, her perfect lie of a face intruding on him. “Jim? You in there?”
He wasn’t so sure about that.
“We’re getting down to the end of this round,” she said softly. “Maybe afterward, you and I can have a little vacation together? Go somewhere hot and make it hotter?”
“I’d rather die.”
She smiled, truly smiled, as if all was well in her world. “Then it’s a date.”
The demon straightened, and his eyes followed her as she stood to her full height. So beautiful, so evil.
“You want me to leave the reporter alone?” she said. “Okay. I will. Because I think the game is already won—I was just belt-and-suspendering it with her. The truth about that woman? Matthias and his past are going to take care of her by themselves—after all, he’s one of mine. He’s a liar and a megalomaniac, and his choices are going to mow her right over, even if you try to sweet-talk him and ply him with morality—hell, even if you frame the argument for goodness in terms of her? You won’t get the stains out of his soul, and his past deeds are going to come back to haunt him.”
Jim took another drag on his cigarette.
“Just remember, we can do this again,” she said with satisfaction. “When you need your exercise. Bye for now, enemy mine.”
Devina disappeared into thin air, leaving him to the river’s constant chatter and the chill of the night.
As he flicked his butt into the water, he thought about all the environmentalists who would be pissed off that he’d littered.
He merely fired up another.
Smoked.
Went back for a third.
As he lit Marlboro after Marlboro, he wasn’t sure exactly how long he sat there with his nuts in the breeze, making smoke rings and being disgusted with himself. The reality was, however, that what had just gone down was so much worse than the stuff she’d tortured him with in her Well of Souls.
This had been voluntary. At least the prior time he’d been with her, it had been against his will.
Staring out of the boat slip at the river beyond, he watched the moonlight tickle the tops of the ripples in the water, the current, or maybe the night wind, creating just enough of a disturbance so that the illumination had something to play with.
It was so beautiful, even though the water was filthy from the spring rain runoff. Even though his mood was foul. Even though he hated himself and the game to the point where he was tempted to quit…
That light was pure grace on the water….
Back when he’d accepted the role of savior, he’d never considered it would eat him alive. Hell, after having worked with and for Matthias for all those years in XOps, he had assumed he’d seen the worst of himself—and humanity.
He hadn’t expected this low point.
And what he needed was something to believe in.
Something tangible, something greater even than fear for his mother’s eternity—and his own.
Getting to his feet, he felt ancient as he went over to the two-sizes-too-small sweatpants he’d borrowed from Matthias. Devina had ripped them off his legs at some point, and they’d ended up underneath one of those damn rowboats. At least they hadn’t gone into the river, though.
Picking up the wad, he grabbed the waistband and gave them a good shake to get them in put-on-able condition—
Something went flying out of the pocket.
And he knew what it was the instant he saw it—even in the darkness, he knew what it was.
He pulled the pants on as he went over and picked the thing up.
The folded-up newspaper article had landed a thin inch away from the open water of the slip, almost lost.
He didn’t want to look at it. Had no interest in seeing that photograph he’d memorized. Didn’t want to measure even one word of the text he knew by heart.
His hands had other ideas, though.
Next thing he knew, he was staring at Sissy’s face, that beautiful, smart, young face. And as he couldn’t look away, he told himself that he was captivated by the image because it was a symbol of everything he hated about Devina.
But it wasn’t all that. Not completely.
Running his fingertips over the pixelated composite of light and dark pinpoints, he touched the delicate gold necklace he wore around his neck, the one given to him by Sissy’s mother…and he thought of those moments he’d been with his girl, talking about his dog, trying to give her something to hold on to, something to believe in when she felt like nothing was ever going to get better….
In a moment of vicious clarity, he realized that Devina was winning. In spite of the score being two to one, the shit she’d been pulling with those blondes had gotten to him, keeping the bitterness and rage about Sissy right in the forefront of his mind.
Excellent strategy.
That girl truly was his Achilles’ heel.
Jim looked out to the river, to that light. Looked back at the printout.
Devina wasn’t going to change. She was going to continue to exploit the weakness; it was, as she’d said, what she’d been designed to do.
So he was going to have to be different.
With a curse, he folded up the article and walked along the slip. At the far edge of it, out from under the boathouse’s roof, he paused in the moonlight.
Grasping the article at the top, he started to rip the piece of paper in half, one hand drawing away from the other—
He didn’t make it very far before he stopped.
“Damn it,” he muttered. “Do it—just f**king do it!”
Except something was clogging the nerves to his appendages, the order from his brain diverted somewhere else.
Dragging a hand through his hair, he wanted to let Sissy go. He really did.
He actually prayed for it.
The only thing that came to him, however, was the reality that she was not just suffering down in that demon’s living room. She was under Devina’s control—and that meant she wasn’t safe.
His enemy was capable of anything.
What he needed was to get Sissy out of there….
45
Mels woke up with a jerk, the darkness that surrounded her taking her back into the river and the water’s suffocation—
The instant she saw the glowing strip across the way at floor level, reality returned. The hotel room. Matthias…
Rolling over to face him, she found him deep asleep, his chest under the duvet rising and falling slowly. He was on his back, his arms on the outside of the covers, his hands down by his sides. He looked like he was ready to get out of bed on an instant’s notice.