I sighed and listened to it, enjoying every second.
He quit doing it, and the minute he did, he tore me out of the uncertain world I was letting myself live in and catapulted me into the pit of hell I’d been courting since that day, weeks after Vinnie died, when Ben and I got drunk and I made a crazy, stupid, inebriated, slut move on him.
“Made a reservation at Giuseppe’s. Seven.”
Hearing his words, I sucked in a painful breath.
Giuseppe’s was like Vinnie’s Pizzeria. You had to know it was there to know it was there. It was a neighborhood hangout and they liked it that way. That didn’t mean they didn’t accept whatever business came their way and the growth that came with that. They just were about doing what they did and doing it well, focusing solely on that and rewarding those who understood the meaning of word of mouth.
It was garden level off an alley. They had no parking. They had no listing in the phonebook. You could show up and hope you got a table, or you could be lucky enough to have Giuseppe’s granddaughter, Elena, who now ran the restaurant, give you her phone number so you could make a reservation.
I had no idea with the prevalence of the Internet if social media cottoned on and she had a Yelp listing that had seven thousand five-star reviews. Though, their listing probably only had three thousand five hundred reviews, seeing as half the people who knew about Giuseppe’s wanted to keep it a secret, in hopes that when they went there, they could get a table. But it was so awesome the other half wouldn’t be able to keep their traps shut about it.
This was because it was Italian dining at its finest. The restaurant was dark. The tables small. The décor mostly rich reds. The mood romantic. You went there for Valentine’s Day. You went there to ask your woman to marry you. You went there to tell your man you were carrying his child. You did not take your children there, not ever, but you passed the knowledge of that restaurant on to them like a treasured family secret, so one day, they’d ask their women to marry them there or tell their man they were having his baby there.
It was the perfect place for a first date if the guy really liked you and didn’t mind you knowing it. It was the kind of place where a guy took you on a first date, you sat across from him, and you instantly decided to spend the rest of your life with him.
But for me, it was a disaster.
Vinnie had taken me to White Castle on our first date. He thought that was funny, and being young and into him, I’d thought it was the same, with the addition of goofy and sweet.
Benny was taking me to Giuseppe’s. He was not playing games.
“Frankie?” Ben called.
I looked at my lap and started deep breathing.
“Honey, you there?” Ben asked.
“I…uh, yeah,” I pushed out. “I’m here.”
“You okay?”
“Yeah. Fine.”
“You good for Giuseppe’s?”
No. Never. Never, ever, ever.
“Sounds awesome,” I told him.
He was silent before he said, “You’re not okay.”
“When Mrs. Zambino got her split, I jumped up and had some pain. I’m still kind of recovering.”
I felt guilt for telling him this because, even though the first part was true, the second part was a lie and that was the part that would make him worry.
“Jesus, that must have been some split,” Benny muttered.
“It was.” At least that was the truth.
“Take it easy, baby. We got a big night.”
Yes, we did.
Because this ended tonight.
“Yeah,” I said.
“I’ll let you go. You’re enjoyin’ yourself. Don’t want you to miss the action.”
More good from Benny.
I closed my eyes but said, “Yeah. See you later.”
“Later, cara.”
I listened to him disconnect, feeling the disconnection of our phone call like a physical thing, foreshadowing of things to come, and that ache in me deepened.
I had approximately a second to feel this before I felt a hand wrap strong under my jaw and my chin was tipped up.
I opened my eyes and looked into the dark brown ones of Mrs. Zambino.
“You went white as a sheet,” she said quietly, the rolling of the balls and crashing of the pins sounding all around us.
I didn’t reply.
She held my jaw in her hand and peered deep in my eyes.
Then she asked, “That Benito on the phone?”
“Yes,” I whispered.
She nodded once and didn’t take her hand from my jaw as she said, “You got an old woman livin’ across the street. You need wisdom, Francesca Concetti, you make your way over. I’ll give it to you.”
Then she let me go and went to the ball return.
I swallowed before I took in an unsteady breath.
I needed wisdom, anyone needed wisdom.
But no way I was walking across the street to get Mrs. Zambino’s version of it.
Needless to say, the rest of my time with old lady Zambino and her crew was not as enjoyable as the start of it was.
When it was over, she dropped Phyllis first and then pointed her Caddy toward home. She had chatted with Phyllis, but when we were alone, the car was deathly quiet as it glided through the streets of Chicago in the neighborhood I called home growing up.
Which brought to mind that Benny bought a house in our ’hood.
Family man, staying close, relishing history.
God didn’t hate me. He despised me.
She stopped outside Benny’s house, the car idling, and I turned to her. “Thanks for lookin’ out for me, Mrs. Zambino.”
She stared intently in my eyes and nodded.
I turned to the door, put my hand on the handle, and mumbled, “See you later.”
I didn’t get the door open.
I turned back when Mrs. Zambino wrapped her silver-tipped, taloned fingers around my knee.
I caught her eyes and she launched right in, speaking softly.
“My Alonzo, rest his soul…” She did the sign of the holy cross with her free hand and kept speaking, “God tested him, givin’ him three girls. A house with him and four women. Then all his girls had nothin’ but girls. House full a’ women, my babies were around. Did his head in.”
She stopped talking and I said nothing because I didn’t know where this was going.
“He loved every minute of it,” she whispered.
The forlorn tone of her voice made my breath catch and reminded me that Al Zambino died only two years ago.
She kept going.
“My Al used to say that if he was a younger man, he’d make Enzo Concetti see sense—all the beauty he created, all that beauty he neglected.”