“I know. Mike gave me one—a gun.”
“Seriously?”
“Yeah. Just the Created venom, though. Told me to watch out for Drake. Said it was standard issue now—all guards and knights keep one on their sword belts.”
I nodded. “They all keep a syringe handy, too—just in case they need to arrest someone that puts up a fight.”
“I know.” He took a puff of that smoke again and blew it out. “They took Lice down with it today.”
“Did they?”
“Yeah. Once they got him around the corner, they jammed it in his neck.”
“I’m sorry about that.”
“S’okay.” He moved his shoulder up. “He was puttin’ up a bit of a fight.”
“I would have, too.”
He laughed then, nodding. “Yeah.”
“So, did Mike show you how to shoot a vampire? ‘Cause those bullets won’t go through bone.”
“Yeah.” He flicked his cigarette bud over the edge and the little flickering orange glow burned its way out of sight. “He said to aim for the eye—that the bullet bounces off the skull of a vampire and stays inside, just jumpin’ around.” He tapped his head. “Mashing up the brain.”
I nodded. “Yup. Or go for the belly.” I made a gun-like motion to my own belly. “Balls work well, too.”
“Ha! I bet.” He leaned forward and stuffed his smoke case in his back pocket. “So, do you get a gun?”
“Nah. I have a sword, but I don’t walk around with it on me.”
“Why not? King does.”
I thought about how sexy David looked with that sword hanging down by his leg, all tall and strong and stern, kinda like an eighteenth-century prince. “I have a dozen or so guards that carry swords. I don’t need it.”
“Fairs enough.”
I smiled, resting my chin on the railing. The night seemed to have worn on to morning across the far horizon too quickly, leaving the ocean with an almost red glow as far out as the eye could see. “Sailor’s warning,” I said, nodding toward it.
“Huh?”
“The red sky. They say that if it’s red at night, it’s a sailor’s delight—”
“Right.” He nodded. “Red sky in morning, a sailor’s warning.”
“You’ve heard that one before?”
“Kiddo, I was in the Navy for a decade.”
“What Navy?”
He looked slowly away. “It was a long time ago.”
“When you were human?”
“Yeah,” he said, his shoulders sinking a little.
“Do you miss being human?”
His lips moved quickly into that coy grin, making his eyes light up. “Not even a little bit.”
“Good.” I wrapped my arm across his waist and gave him a little squeeze. “‘Cause I like you as a vampire. You’re cocky and kinda sadistic, but there’s no one else like you, Eric.”
“I’ll take that as a compliment.”
“It is, silly.” I laughed, and he laid his arm over mine, patting my elbow a few times.
When I first met him, I always thought music was the way David connected to the deeper, more soulful part inside himself. He never played for show, never paraded himself or his musical talents, and was never arrogant about it. But I never saw in him the emotion I saw in other true musicians when they’d play alone—when they thought no one else was around. I could sit at the piano and play for hours, tears streaming down my cheeks, the very soul of the song coming to life because of me. And I’d watched David sit for hours, too—snuck up and hid behind the door to the Great Hall—waited for the sad song he was playing to draw some raw emotion from him. But never. Not once. He played, but he never let go.
I stood by the bedroom door, my arms folded, and watched him where he sat on the bed with his guitar across his lap, his thoughts somewhere out there on the day over the balcony ledge. He played a sad song, sitting slightly more hunched than he usually did, and sang the words as if he was compelled to, yet wasn’t really performing either—he was just singing for himself. And this—the curve of his spine, the angle of his chin against the grasp of the world, and the very absence of that smile in his eyes—was his tell. This was his raw emotion shining through. He would never bleed tears into an empty room. He would never let emotion come up on its own and steal his composure, but his body couldn’t pretend he felt no pain in his heart.
I walked over and sat behind him on the bed, wrapping one hand under his arm and turning it to cup his shoulder, laying my cheek on the other. “Everything okay?”
He received my affection with what sounded like a breath of relief, gently resting his jaw against my eyebrow. “It is now.”
“Good,” I whispered back, smiling into his shoulder blade.
“What you doing?”
“Just watching you sing.”
He glanced back at the open door and sighed, shaking his head as he turned his gaze on the day again. “I thought I shut that.”
“You did. I opened it.”
He nodded to himself.
“Hey, David?”
“Yes, my love.”
“I’m worried.”
“About what?”
“About. . .” I sat up on my knees and massaged his shoulders. “There’s something . . . wrong.”
“What do you mean?”
“It’s this lighthouse thing.”
“What about it, my love.” He laid the guitar down on the bed and turned when I didn’t answer, taking my hand off his shoulder to hold it. “I can see how upset you are by this. What is it?”
“It’s . . . I get this feeling.”
“Feeling?”
“Yeah.” I nodded, not really sure how to explain it. “Like I’m forgetting something.”
He laughed and hooked his arm behind my back, pulling me around and into his lap. “You are, my love. You have amnesia.”
“But, I . . . I have a really bad feeling about it.”
“Of course you do,” he said simply. “You’re missing a part of your life, a section of events that happened, resulting in extreme pain and near death, and your mind is trying to make sense of it. It’s your instinct to survive, to find a reason something occurred and prevent it happening again.”
My shoulders relaxed. “You think?”
“Yes.” He lifted my hand from the buttons I was toying with and kissed it. “I’m sure of it.”