"He's like a lot of men," Demeter said quietly.
"I know you've got a gun in that drawer," I told her. "Don't try it."
"Why shouldn't I?" she said.
"Because I'm not going to give you to Marcone."
"What do you want from me?" she asked.
I shrugged. "I might ask you for information sometimes. If you could help me without endangering yourself, I'd appreciate it. Either way, it doesn't affect whether or not I talk to Marcone."
Her eyes narrowed. "Why not?"
"Maybe I want to see him go down someday," I said. "But mostly because it's none of my damned business. I just wanted you to know that I'd seen you. This time maybe he won't put it all together. He's got more likely suspects than you inside his organization-and I'd be shocked if you hadn't already realized what a great patsy Torelli is going to make."
Demeter gave me a wintry smile.
"But don't get overconfident. If you make another move that obvious, he'll figure it out. And you'll disappear."
Demeter let out a bare laugh and shut the filing cabinet. "I disappeared years ago." She gave me a steady look. "Are you here to do business, Mister Dresden?"
Granted, there was a building full of very...fit girls who would be happy to, ah, work on my tone. And my tone was letting me know that it would be happy to be worked on. The rest of my body, however, thought that a big meal and about two weeks of sleep was a much better idea. And once you got up to my neck, the rest of me thought that this whole place was looking prettier and hollower every time I visited.
"It's done," I said, and left.
At home, I couldn't sleep.
Finally I had enough spare time to worry about what the hell was wrong with my right hand.
I wound up in my lab, dangling the packet of stale catnip for Mister and filling Bob in on the events of the past few days.
"Wow," Bob said. "Soulfire. Are you sure he said soulfire?"
"Yeah," I said wearily. "Why?"
"Well," the skull said. "Soulfire is...well. It's Hellfire, essentially. Only from the other place."
"Heavenfire?"
"Well..." Bob said, "yes. And no. Hellfire is something you use to destroy things. Soulfire is used the opposite way-to create stuff. Look, basically what you do is, you take a portion of your soul and you use it as a matrix for your magic."
I blinked. "What?"
"It's sort of like using rebar inside concrete," Bob said. "You put a matrix of rebar in, then pour concrete around it, and the strength of the entire thing together is a great deal higher than either one would be separately. You could do things that way that you could never do with either the rebar or the concrete alone."
"But I'm doing that with my soul?" I demanded.
"Oh, come on, Harry. All you mortals get all hung up over your precious souls. You've never seen your soul, never touched it, never done anything with it. What's all the to-do?"
"So what you're saying is that this hand construct was made out of my soul," I said.
"Your soul and your magic fused together, yeah," Bob said. "Your soul converted into energy. Soulfire. In this case, the spirit energy drawn from your aura right around your right hand, because it fit the construct so well, it being a big version of your right hand and all. Your standard force-projection spell formed around the matrix of soulfire, and what had been an instantaneous exertion of force became a long-term entity capable of manipulation and exertion to the same degree. Not really more powerful than just the force spell, as much as it was more than simply the force spell."
I wiggled my tingling fingers. "Oh. But my soul's going to get better, right?"
"Oh, sure," Bob said. "Few days, a week or two at most, it'll grow back in. Go out and have a good time, enjoy yourself, do some things that uplift the human spirit or whatever, and it'll come back even faster."
I grunted. "So what you're saying is that soulfire doesn't let me do anything new. It just makes me more of what I already am."
"A lot more," Bob said, nodding cheerfully from his shelf. "It's how angels do all of their stuff. Though admittedly, they've got a lot more in the way of soul to draw upon than you do."
"I thought angels didn't have souls," I said.
"Like I said, people get all excited and twitchy when that word gets used," Bob said. "Angels don't have anything else."
"Oh. What happens if I, uh, you know. Use too much of it?"
"What's five minus five, Harry?"
"Zero."
"Right. Think about that for a minute. I'm sure you'll come to the right conclusion."
"It's bad?"
"See? You're not totally hopeless," Bob said. "And hey, you got a new magic sword to custodianize, too? Merlin, eat your heart out; he only got to look after one! And working a case with Uriel! You're hitting the big-time, Harry!"
"I haven't really heard much about Uriel," I said. "I mean I know he's an archangel, but..."
"He's...sort of Old Testament," Bob said. "You know the guy who killed the firstborn children of Egypt? Him. Other than that, well. There's only suspicions. And he isn't the sort to brag. It's always the quiet ones, you know?"
"Heaven has a spook," I said. "And Mab likes his style."
"And he did you a favor!" Bob said brightly. "You just know that can't be good!"
I put my head down on the table and sighed.
But after that I was able to go upstairs and get some real sleep.
I always like the onion-volcano thing they do at the Japanese steak houses. Me and the other seven-year-olds at the table. I got to catch the shrimp in my mouth, too, when the chef flicked them up into a high arc with his knife. I did so well he hit me with two, one from a knife in either hand, and I got them both, to a round of applause from the table, and a genuine laugh from Anastasia.
We had a delicious meal, and the two of us lingered after everyone else at our little table-grill had left.
"Can I get your take on something?" I asked her.
"Certainly."
I told her about my experience on the island, and the eerie sense of familiarity that had come with it.
"Oh, that," Anastasia said. "Your Sight's coming in. That's all."
I blinked at her. "Uh. What?"
"The Sight," she replied calmly. "Every wizard develops some measure of precognizance as he matures. It sounds to me as if yours has begun to stir, and has recognized a place that may be of significance to you in the future."