"I know what you're wondering," she said quietly. "How can I do it in the first place, and why don't I stop altogether."
When he eventually spoke, his voice was low and respectful, like he wasn't judging. "I don't know you, but you don't seem like...well, some of those other women at the club. So I'm guessing something must be pretty damn wrong for you to be in that line of work."
Marie-Terese looked out the window again and watched a branch float on by. "I'm not like most of my colleagues. And let's just leave it at that."
"All right."
"Was that your girlfriend last night?"
He frowned and lifted his mug to his lips. After he took a deep sip, he cocked an eyebrow. "So you're allowed to keep secrets, but I can't?"
She shrugged and thought, damn it, she needed to keep her mouth shut. "You're right. That's not fair."
"Yes, she's my girlfriend. At least...well, she was last night."
Marie-Terese actually bit her own lip to keep from pressing him for details. Had the pair of them broken up? And if so, why?
Vin resumed eating, but his broad shoulders did not relax. "Can I say something I shouldn't?"
She stiffened as he stared over at her. "Okay."
"Last night I fantasized about being with you."
Marie-Terese slowly lowered her mug. Yeah, okay...and there were some things a man could say that made you hotter than hell. And some looks that were as tangible as touches. And both of those together, coming from the man across from her...
In a stunning rush, her body responded, her br**sts tingling at the tips, her thighs tightening, her blood racing...and the effect shocked her. It had been so long - forever, actually - since she'd felt anything remotely sexual toward a man. And yet here she was in this diner, sitting across from a huge no-no in a cashmere sweater, experiencing for real something she'd been faking every night with strangers.
She blinked quickly.
"Shit, I shouldn't have said anything," he muttered.
"Oh, it's not you. Honest." It was her life. "And I don't mind."
"You don't?"
"No." Her voice was a little too deep.
"Well, it wasn't right."
Her heart stopped in her chest. Okay, that little comment was better than a gallon of ice to get rid of those warm fuzzies.
"Well, if you're feeling guilty," she said roughly, "I think you're confessing to the wrong woman."
Maybe that was why he'd hit a bad patch with the girlfriend.
Except Vin shook his head. "It wasn't right because I imagined paying for you and I., didn't like how that felt at all."
Marie-Terese put her mug down on the table. "And why is that."
Although she knew the answer: because someone like him could never be with somebody like her.
As Vin opened his mouth, she held up one palm and reached for her purse at the same time. "Actually, I already know. And I think I'd better get go - "
"Because if I were with you, I would want you to pick me." His eyes flashed up to hers and held on. "I would want you to choose me. Not be with me because I paid for it. I would want you...to want me and want to be with me."
Marie-Terese froze with her body halfway out of the booth.
He continued softly. "And I'd want you to enjoy it as much as I know I would."
After a long moment, Marie-Terese eased back down into her seat. Picking up her mug again, she swallowed hard and heard herself talking - although it wasn't until after she'd spoken that she realized what she'd said: "Do you like redheads?"
He frowned a little and shrugged. "Yeah. Sure. Why?"
"No reason," she murmured from behind her coffee.
Chapter 18
A crossroads meant you went left or you went right, Jim thought as he lay stretched out on the garage floor, a wrench in his hand.
When you came to a crossroads, by definition, you had to pick a course, because going straight on the path you were on was no longer an option: You got on the highway or stayed on the surface road. You passed this car on the dotted line or stayed behind him to keep safe. You saw an orange light and either sped through or started to slow.
Some of these decisions didn't matter. Others, unbeknownst to you, put you in the path of a drunk driver or kept you out of his way.
In Vin's case, that ring he was sitting on was the equivalent of a right hand turn that took him out of the way of an eighteen-wheeler that was just about to hit a patch of black ice: What the guy did now meant everything to his life and he had to hit that direction signal and get onto the new road fast. The SOB was running out of time with his woman and had to pull the trigger on that all important question before she -
"Fuck!"
Jim dropped the wrench that had slipped and shook out his hand. All things considered, he probably needed to pay a little more attention to what he was doing; assuming he wanted to keep his knuckles where they were. Trouble was, he was consumed with the whole Vin thing.
What the hell did he do with the guy now? How did he motivate him to ask for that woman's hand in marriage?
In his old life, the answer would have been easy: He'd have just put a gun to Vin's head and dragged the f**ker to the altar. Now? He needed to be a little more civilized.
Sitting back on the cool concrete floor, Jim glared at the piece-of-shit motorcycle that he'd been carting around since he'd landed back in the States. It hadn't worked then and it didn't now, and going by his half-assed rehabbing job this morning, its future didn't require shades. Christ, he had no idea why he'd bought the thing. Dreams of freedom, maybe. Either that or, like any guy with a set of balls, he was into Harleys.
Dog looked up from the patch of sunlight he'd been snoozing in, his shaggy ears pricking.
Jim sucked on the knuckle he'd skinned. "Sorry I cursed."
Dog didn't seem to care as he put his head on his paws, his bushy eyebrows up like he was prepared to keep listening, whether it was curses or something folks could say in mixed company.
"Crossroads, Dog. Do you know what that means? You got to choose." Jim picked up the wrench again and had another go at a bolt that was so encased in old oil, you couldn't tell it was hexagonal. "You got to choose."
He thought of Devina looking up at him from the driver's seat of that fancy-ass BMW. I've been waiting for him to warm up and trust me and love me, but it hasn't happened, and I'm losing the strength to hang on, Jim, I really am.
Then he thought of the way diPietro had stared at that dark-haired prostitute.
Yeah, there was a crossroads, all right. The problem was, diPietro, the fidiot, had come up to the signpost and instead of going to the right, where the arrows pointed to Happyville, he was gunning for Work-yourself-into-an-early-grave-and-be-mourned-by-no-one-but-your-accountant-opolis.
Jim hoped that telling Devina about the ring would buy some time, but how long would that last?
Man, on some levels, his last job had been easier, because he'd had much more control: Get the target in his sights, drop the bastard, take off.
Making Vin see what was so obvious, though...much harder. Plus, before Jim had had training and support. Now? Nada.
The growling sound of two Harleys brought his head around. Dog's too.
The pair of bikes rolled up the gravel to the garage, and Jim envied the SOBs who were gripping those handlebars. Adrian's and Eddie's rides gleamed, the chrome fenders and pipes catching the sunlight and winking like the Harleys knew they had the goods and would be damned if they'd hide the pride.
"Need some help with your hog?" Adrian said as he kicked out his stand and dismounted.
"Where's your helmet?" Jim balanced his arms on his knees. "New York has a law."
"New York has a lot of laws." Adrian's boots crunched over the driveway, then stomped on the concrete as he came up to give Jim's DIY project a look-see. "Man, where did you find that thing? A landfill?"
"No. I got it at a scrap yard."
"Oh, right. That's a step up. My bad."
The men were nice to Dog, giving him pats as he wagged around. And the good news was that limp of his seemed a little better today, but Jim was still taking him to a vet on Monday. He'd already left messages at three different places and whoever could get them in first won.
Eddie glanced up from doing the pet and coo thing to shake his head at the bike. "Think you need more than one person on this."
Jim rubbed his chin. "Nah, I'm good."
All three of them, Adrian, Eddie, and Dog, looked over at him with identical expressions of doubt...